It sounds like your wife has made you into a cuck like my wife has made me. I haven’t fucked my wife in 3 years because she has other guys fucking her. She does allow me to lick her cum filled pussy and allows me to jerk off once a month.
My wife will allow me to jerk off about once a month but her pussy is for other men’s cocks. She does have me lick her daily and after she gets fucked. She does have me sucking their cocks if I am there
I am female lead and I am denied of any sexual relief for up to a month at a time and when I am allowed to cum I have to jerk off on her or her boyfriends cocks and clean up
For me it is a requirement to lick up her lovers cum
When she does allow me to jerk off I am expected to lick it up. She allows me to cum about once a month here lately and I enjoy the empowerment she has over me