As a male, how is it to feel someone cum in you?

Cumming a male means you orgasm ejects your body. But how is it to receive an orgasm in your body as a man?
The first feeling having someone cum in me is extremely hot as you feel his cock pulsating and the warm seed fill you up, immediately after that I feel so wrong as I just got fucked and bred by a man. I feel like such a faggot and so disgusting, but then my wife comforts me and tells me I was a good sissy faggot and that she’s proud of me.