I've been with my wife for 6 years. Completely faithful, etc. She had only ever had 1 other serious boyfriend and several guys she 'dated' shortly - not sure what that means. She is very very unsexual. She has a really small vagina so sex with even me (averagish size) can be very painful for her. We have sex about twice every 5-6 months- actually didn't even have sex on our wedding night. Anyways, as typical I am highly sexual but find it disgusting to ask my wife to have sex with me - so yeah, we rarely ever have sex and I have slowly developed strange fetishes like cuckolding.
Anyways, several months ago I was incredibly horny and went against my better judgement and ended up contacting her original boyfriend. She was with the guy for two years in college and she was extremely in love with him. I found some of their old love notes and she was really happy with him. She had told me that he cheated on her and she left him. But I read in her notes that she tried staying with him after he cheated then he eventually broke up with her anyways.
I was dying to know what their sex life was like - was it like ours?! I assumed it had to be much more passionate and consistent. It was killing me inside. I couldn't imagine this sorry to say, boring woman being so sexually turned on. When we do have sex it is so robotic and slow and she gets upset i hurt her by accident - though i never go hard or fast, in fact i am barely ever inside all the way and i usually just end up rubbing my head on her clit til she tells me to stop. It's horrible and so disappointing...
The only thing that truly turns me on anymore is the THOUGHT of her being sexually aroused and because I cant imagine her feeling that way with me, it has to be another guy in the fantasy. So to think that she actually has felt that way in real life in her prior relationship really really turns me on. Not even to the point where I want to have sex with her, I just get excited at the idea that she can actually enjoy sex with someone like i am happy for her. My favorite part of sex is always seeing the girl pleasured.
Like I said, i contacted her ex and he actually responded. i slowly let him know the situation and he seemed to understand. He said he dealt with some of her issues (specifically the overly small vagina), but he was able to overcome them by satisfying her and getting her to relax. Then I ask what their experiences were like, and he told me how once they stayed at his parents cabin alone, and one day they were just naked around the house and ended up finger banging her from behind in front of a window while he squeezed her tits and she stroked his cock slowly. He also mentioned how whenever they would hang out she would casually play with his cock like while watching tv, etc. And sometimes not even sexually, but just non chalantly rubbed around his limp cock head with her fingers while they sat on the couch.
I couldn't believe what he was telling me. I was turned on but at the same time pretty hurt. I can add more, but just had to get this off my chest. Its been like 4 months since then and i feel so strange around her. Anyways... thanks for listening.
Anyways, several months ago I was incredibly horny and went against my better judgement and ended up contacting her original boyfriend. She was with the guy for two years in college and she was extremely in love with him. I found some of their old love notes and she was really happy with him. She had told me that he cheated on her and she left him. But I read in her notes that she tried staying with him after he cheated then he eventually broke up with her anyways.
I was dying to know what their sex life was like - was it like ours?! I assumed it had to be much more passionate and consistent. It was killing me inside. I couldn't imagine this sorry to say, boring woman being so sexually turned on. When we do have sex it is so robotic and slow and she gets upset i hurt her by accident - though i never go hard or fast, in fact i am barely ever inside all the way and i usually just end up rubbing my head on her clit til she tells me to stop. It's horrible and so disappointing...
The only thing that truly turns me on anymore is the THOUGHT of her being sexually aroused and because I cant imagine her feeling that way with me, it has to be another guy in the fantasy. So to think that she actually has felt that way in real life in her prior relationship really really turns me on. Not even to the point where I want to have sex with her, I just get excited at the idea that she can actually enjoy sex with someone like i am happy for her. My favorite part of sex is always seeing the girl pleasured.
Like I said, i contacted her ex and he actually responded. i slowly let him know the situation and he seemed to understand. He said he dealt with some of her issues (specifically the overly small vagina), but he was able to overcome them by satisfying her and getting her to relax. Then I ask what their experiences were like, and he told me how once they stayed at his parents cabin alone, and one day they were just naked around the house and ended up finger banging her from behind in front of a window while he squeezed her tits and she stroked his cock slowly. He also mentioned how whenever they would hang out she would casually play with his cock like while watching tv, etc. And sometimes not even sexually, but just non chalantly rubbed around his limp cock head with her fingers while they sat on the couch.
I couldn't believe what he was telling me. I was turned on but at the same time pretty hurt. I can add more, but just had to get this off my chest. Its been like 4 months since then and i feel so strange around her. Anyways... thanks for listening.