Your misery as a husband that is unable to share your wife.

I deeply long to be a cuck. I want to participate, watch, listen and sometimes wait in the car while my wife is fucked by her lovers. I dream of eating another man's cum from inside her. And of performing with another man for her viewing pleasure or at her command. I desire to go to a swinging party as a cuck where I don't have sex while she is permitted to so everyone will know of my status.

In many ways I feel my life will not be fulfilled until my main sex practice becomes openly bisexual MFM.