The humiliation , shame and caring for your wife or girlfriend unconditionally is what being a Cuck is all about.
No one else can feed your soul that dynamic and you will never return to what society calls a normal sex life, not
that you would.
Don't get me wrong I feel for you.
This is another case of your husband not thinking this situation through.
When you give someone something you can't take it away.
It has to be mutually agreed upon.
The path of a true cuck is very dark and lonely one at times, but you can find no other high and sense of satifaction that you get
by serving. Knowing you have/had make someone else so happy beyond belief. That's what it's all about.
Do you vet your prospective bulls?
We did which would knock half of them out for one reason or another.
It's hard enough to have the bulls show up period.
A Hotwife and Cuckold relationships are two different venues.
in some cases a Hotwife relationship may lead into a Cuckold relationship.
You are born a Cuckold and your wife brings it out of you.
For those of us who have done this you know how hard it is.
Keep in mind every relationship varies...
Cuckolding is not for the weak.
There is fantasy and reality.
I never wanted to be a cuck it's something that happened
and I embraced it because that's who I was.