This is what I expected from reading your earlier posts. Now you are single but I don't quite understand what meant when you said your sex life was over. Did you mean it's over with her or over period? Do you feel so emasculated that you probably can't make with any women going foreword ? Just as a matter of interest, when my wife was breaking me in as cuckold, at first I resisted and even walked out on her in a fit of macho pride. I was like, no bitch is going to have all this freedom while making me an imprisoned cuckold and controlling my life. I laughed at the idea. I went my way like a self respecting man should. But I remembered what she said as I walked out the door: " You'll come crawling back." This I discovered was not an idle statement. As my time away from her increased, a feeling grew inside of me. I would pick up girls and have sex as best as I could but forgot how ineffectual I was in bed due to my lack of size. While some women were polite and faked it, others would laugh me out of bed or get up and leave telling me how pathetic I was. I found that the girls that laughed and rejected me turned me on. So I became obsessed with humiliation and remembered how that was my ex'es plan for me anyway. But I still had an emotional barrier I had to break. That was a certain kind of pride I had when I left her. I was intent on showing her how I was a 'real' man and didn't need her. I was mixed between standing my ground or surrendering to her and begging her to take me back. Well the joy of humiliation was stronger than my male pride which was pretty much destroyed by my attempts with other women. So I humbly called her and told her I wanted to come back. Her sadistic laughter gave me an instant erection and I knew she would allow me back. The intense shame I felt when she made me kneel before her and recite the rules that I would live by set the tone of my lifestyle and made me realize that this was my place. That was the day the last of my male ego and pride were snuffed out. Now, a knew kind of pride replaced it, the pride of doing my best to serve my dominant wife and never braking the rules she set for me.