Feeling like I’m stuck in limbo

I’ve had my wife cheating fantasy since I met her in 2017, I used to masterbate to the thought of her having sex with men in the saunas at her gym. 8 years later I am obsessed with the fantasy of her cheating and it feels like every day this is getting stronger. I know many of you would advise just to tell her but I absolutely can not risk it because we have two kids and if she took my desires the wrong way and didn’t understand them I worry it would break us apart. So yeah I feel stuck with this fantasy that I can’t talk to her about. Does anyone else feel like this?
 
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