We've been married a long time. Got married young. He was in the military and very quickly after we married, he was deployed. Before he left, he told me that I was allowed to date guys while he was gone. I wasn't sure how I felt about it but after a few months I was lonely so ya know... I don't know if things where intentional or not. I just started to go out. This was way back in the beginning of the internet to online wasn't really a thing yet and no apps were around, it was still going to bars and clubs. Anyway, after one night and a few drinks I ended up back a a guys place fucking like rabbits. After I did feel guilty and ashamed, but when I told my husband on your next call, he said it was hot as hell and he loved it. I guess that's what I needed to hear. So I kept doing it. I was safe, used protection, made them wear condoms, all that but the frequency picked up. It was strange, liberating. It was the first time I was honestly and legitimately fucking just to fuck. I knew I wasn't ever going to have a relationship with the guy or date them. In my almost 15 years now, I've rarely seen the same guy a second time. It's almost always a one-night-stand and I want it that way. The strangest part was when he got home. I figured that when he was home, I would stop but he encouraged it. I distinctly remember the first time after he got home, we had dinner and he said I should go out and "find a hookup" so I got dressed up and and went out. I ended up getting fucked by a pretty "big" guy and came home after. I had taken, by this time to letting a few guys bareback me and this was one of those times. So, it was late when I got home and I got directly into bed. I thought by husband was asleep but the minute I got in bed he was on me pulling my shirt off and panties. He went down on me and ate me like hes never ate me before. I knew I had that other guys cum in me still and I knew he knew it also. It was so hot I had the biggest orgasm. Then he fucked me and it was crazy cause it was like I was simultaneously thinking it wag good and that his dick didn't even compare to the other guys. It's strange to think about, my first anal wasn't with my husband and he's never had anal with me even though I do it all the time. My first DP wasn't with my husband and he's never been in one with me. Actually, almost none of my sexual firsts and experiences have been with him and we are very very happy. I feel the best when I come home after a good date full of cum and used hard and I know that my husband knows it.
