So I was just mowing the lawn for an hour and a half and thinking about why I feel the way I do about wanting my wife to have sex with other men and how to help her understand. And I suddenly had the thought that, unlike what she first thought when she “broke me” it’s not that I’m not attracted to her…just the opposite. It’s that I’m not as aroused at the thought of me having sex with her as I am someone else. And yes, it definitely has to do with penis size as well as self confidence. But the solution is not about me accepting that she doesn’t care about my size and isn’t wishing she could have bigger…it’s about ME not being satisfied with my size and ME wanting her to have sex with a bigger cock…the kind of cock I wish I had. It’s about me wanting a surrogate or a stand in or whatever; someone who can have sex with my wife the way I wish I could.