After feelings

We have yet to dip our toes into this lifestyle if it happens. My wife had similar concerns of how I might perceive her afterwards. I’m a fairly reasonable guy and would be very hypocritical of me to think of her any less especially how much I’ve wanted her to be with another guy. However even saying this, as we haven’t done it “yet”, I’m still thinking to myself of how I’ll react after.

I have wanted this for a long time and even when I’m not in an aroused state, I still want it. Not sure how strange this might sound but because I love her, I want it even more. If I didn’t love her, this lifestyle wouldn’t be as attractive to me. How would I feel after? Well you wouldn’t know until the deed is done, but my main concern is how would she feel after. Would she regret it and feel dirty? Would she hate me for allowing her to have sex with another man? I’m sure things will be different but for the better I hope.