A little bit of background hubby and I have done 3 ways together in the past. He has told me afterwards his constructive criticism that could have made it better. To me it felt like I was being told I was not good enough. Fast forward to now. We have kids I usually play on my own. We originally came up with meeting guys on dating apps and I am cheating. I would sound record what was going on when I met these guys so he could hear. Some even took video. The sound was never good enough, I would sent on my way home so he could listen while I was driving home and be ready to fuck me. Instead I would get phone calls of how I ruined everything again. I would be driving home literally feeling like a piece of shit then come home to him yelling at me home I don't do anything right and I am selfish. Now he wants different scenarios and I am like I don't know how to do this and he's like find a way. He says look on Twitter and see what he is into idk wtf that means? Everything I go he fights with me? And he says I am sfish that I do what I want. I don't need this in my life is it fun yes but I don't need it. I would be perfectly happy with my husband but he says he needs this in his life. Please help me.