Bi encounter watched by my wife, milestone to my becoming a cuck

I think it's a survival response the human spirit possesses ,kind of like the Stockholm syndrome. Turning a negative into a positive. In my case this transition occured at a very early age. The initial negatine experiences I had did not involve so much a bully and a cuckolding wife I was only 5 or 6 years old. Mine was from being whipped by my mother and having a little girl standing there watching and laughing.That little girl later became my wife.This along with some other things became my early brain wiring which later in life made me what I am today. My marriage to Shannon is not just about being cuckolded because there are better men but because we both have a need. Hers is to inflict pain and humiliation on me and mine is to receive it.Those early days are ingrained into our relationship now. She is a sadistic domme and I am a masochistic sub.This started in our early childhood and developed throughout our teen years and grew several branches of various sexual kinks along the way. For us it is all positive.
That's a very interesting and deep rooted sexual world. My grooming goes back to my childhood too. Certain things take shape early in life, and with me the way you have been formed will follow you in the way you interact with others, what your likes and dislikes are and your personality. Being groomed early led to similar experiences following me in a long vein.

May I ask, how your wife was in a situation to watch you being abused at that age?
 
That's a very interesting and deep rooted sexual world. My grooming goes back to my childhood too. Certain things take shape early in life, and with me the way you have been formed will follow you in the way you interact with others, what your likes and dislikes are and your personality. Being groomed early led to similar experiences following me in a long vein.

May I ask, how your wife was in a situation to watch you being abused at that age?
She was my next door neighbor. Shannon was slightly older than me and had a lot more liberties than me. My mother was an old fashoned "Spare the rod spoil the child type" My biggest rule was stay in the yard when I was so young and when I got caught leaving the yard out came the strap. Shannon had more freedoms and we hung out together. I guess I had a puppy love crush on her and she was able to influence me quite easily. There was a small mom&pop store in our neighborhood not far from my house and shannon always lured me out of my yard by offering to buy candy and share it with me. I couldn't resist her feminine wiles and always thought I could get back to my yard without getting caught. I never could. She would suggest we go round back of the store where there was a brook where we liked to sit by and enjoy our candy,keeping me there as long as she could. She seemed to know that it was just a matter of time before we could hear my mother calling for me. She was like a little Eddie Haskel and I didn't have a clue. When we got back to the yard mom would be out there with her leather strap.Shannon would laugh with delight as I got my ass whipped and my mother never blamed her for her part. I was so easily manipulated by her, I never learned my lesson and just repeated this behavoir. This is just the beginning though, a few years later my mother got a part time job and hired Shannon to do some house work and such while she was at work.This was where she expanded her influence over me.
 
Something I remembered with Makiko, when I was a kid, my mom had this wealthy friend who was into raunchy shit and my mom worked for her helping publish a dirty magazine. She lived in this big penthouse apartment with a wraparound balcony high above the city, where my mom would go and work on preparing the magazine. She had a son a few years older than me. One day we find his mom's stash of sex toys including several dildos of various size, and we both grab big ones and then have a fight with them. He's got a big long fat dildo and I lose the fight and he smacks the crap out of me with this fat rubber dick.

I told this story to Makiko one day when we were laying in the park on a spring day just talking. She told me it was prophetic for me to get smacked with another guy's cock like that. It struck her as very appropriate and fitting and she let me know. She knew I was a beta, and this story probably inspired her when she humiliated me after I approached her about hooking up.
 
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Something I remembered with Makiko, when I was a kid, my mom had this wealthy friend who was into raunchy shit and my mom worked for her helping publish a dirty magazine. She lived in this big penthouse apartment with a wraparound balcony high above the city, where my mom would go and work on preparing the magazine. She had a son a few years older than me. One day we find his mom's stash of sex toys including several dildos of various size, and we both grab big ones and then have a fight with them. He's got a big long fat dildo and I lose the fight and he smacks the crap out of me with this fat rubber dick.

I told this story to Makiko one day when we were laying in the park on a spring day just talking. She told me it was prophetic for me to get smacked with another guy's cock like that. It struck her as very appropriate and fitting and she let me know. She knew I was a beta, and this story probably inspired her when she humiliated me after I approached her about hooking up.
He's got a big long fat dildo and I lose the fight and he smacks the crap out of me with this fat rubber dick. That's pretty funny. :D
 
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Confusing for sure. The black guy my mom fucked was a military buddy of my dad. He was showering the next morning and walked out of the bathroom and I saw his big cock. I had never seen a black one or one that big before. I fantasized about my mom fucking it. It felt weird fantasizing about my mom.
After that how did you view or think about Mom? Ever fantasizing of watching her?
 
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Something I remembered with Makiko, when I was a kid, my mom had this wealthy friend who was into raunchy shit and my mom worked for her helping publish a dirty magazine. She lived in this big penthouse apartment with a wraparound balcony high above the city, where my mom would go and work on preparing the magazine. She had a son a few years older than me. One day we find his mom's stash of sex toys including several dildos of various size, and we both grab big ones and then have a fight with them. He's got a big long fat dildo and I lose the fight and he smacks the crap out of me with this fat rubber dick.

I told this story to Makiko one day when we were laying in the park on a spring day just talking. She told me it was prophetic for me to get smacked with another guy's cock like that. It struck her as very appropriate and fitting and she let me know. She knew I was a beta, and this story probably inspired her when she humiliated me after I approached her about hooking up.
What ever became of her, do you know?
 
After that how did you view or think about Mom? Ever fantasizing of watching her?
Well i was devastated because I believed she was a traditional wholesome mom. For the most part she was. I struggled with believing she was a cheater and a slut. I struggled with her sleeping with another race. Remember, this was the early 80’s and there were only a few black people in my town. Then I found my Dads interracial porn & cuckold Stash. It was all black guys fucking white women. It was stories about husbands letting their Wife’s get fucked by black men. My Dad was on a ship in the navy that was a large percentage of black men. I have to think his kink started there. After I found the stash. I struggled with the reality that my Dad probably set it up, and probably had her hook up with other black men at times. They left us with a baby sitter once a month and went into the city to stay the night. So who knows what they were up To.
I eventually did fantasize about watching her fuck one of these black guys. That hairy bush getting pounded by a BBC. Kinky..
 
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I'd like that ,use the conversations portal on WWTP. She had a mean streak towards you. She sounds like she would make a good dominatrix or maybe a strict cuckoldress like my wife.
Makiko was very cruel and it stung for a while. I think Makiko would have little problem cucking me had we gotten into a relationship, and I think it would have gotten very nasty and kinky. At that age I didn't realize I could enjoy being cucked, that was all later.

I don't think Makiko would be into the role of dominatrix, I think she was submissive to men, but real men... not a beta cuck like me, I get treated like shit by her.