Hi,
I just wanted to say hello to the group & give a little back-story of where I'm coming from...
I developed my initial cuck-curiosity, back in 2019, after my then-wife confessed to cheating on me.
I was scared of her leaving me. And rather than get angry, I made excuses for her like, “it was a wedding, you were drinking, I get it.”
I never would have expected my reaction—but very quickly—I was jerking regularly, imagining my wife getting fucked.
Then, out of nowhere, I started fantasizing about running into the guy at some future event. Like encountering him in the men’s room. Where somehow, he gets me to suck him off while telling me he’ll be fucking my wife again soon.
I’d been 100% hetero my whole life, but a few months later, I met a guy online, who was looking to get a BJ from a husband while viewing his wife pics.
When he came to town, I had a whole slideshow of my wife ready for him. Which gave it a very strong cuckold vibe.
It was my wife and her pics that he dirty-talked about as I let him basically face-fuck me. It was my wife’s boudoir pics he was looking at as he blasted off on my face.
Even though my wife wasn’t physically there, she was there in spirit and played a starring role.
When he left the hotel room, it was like I hadn’t just let myself be used and humbled, he'd used and gotten off to my wife as well.
I left feeling thoroughly humbled & cuckolded, but without any real-world consequences of being actually cuckolded. And an hour later, I could go back to my regular hum-drum life with no one the wiser.
My wife never learned of my c-sucking meetings, but for other reasons, ultimately divorced me 2.5 years ago.
I spent the next year despondent & still pining for my wife, but I’d lost all curiosity about giving another BJ.
Then, 15 months ago, by an incredible stroke of luck, I met a beautiful and voluptuous, native-american girl at a house party.
I’m thin & decent looking but I’m 37, and she’s only 25, and ridiculously out of my league. So, I’m assumed I wouldn’t make it past a 2nd date.
But incredibly, she moved in with me last January, and if things keep going well, by next year, I’ll be proposing.
Though after she moved in with me, I broke the mental seal, and began jerking off, imagining my new gf cheating on me. Which given our age difference, and the way guys are always checking her out, seems completely inevitable.
Her past boyfriend was in the military, and another was in construction. Like real alpha male types. Me—I don’t know how change a flat tire, or ride a Harley or chop down a tree. I’ve never gotten into a fist-fight, cause I know I’d get my ass kicked. I’m the antithesis of who she’s dated in the past.
It’s what she’s she says like about me, but I think she’s just too young and flirtatious not to someday wake-up, or grow bored with me.
And as my relationship-insecurity has grown, so has my desire suddenly, to suck cock and show off my girl, and be humbled again.
I already put together a progressively-more revealing slideshow of my gf that I regularly jerk off to – imagining some alpha-guy looking at my fiancé-to-be projected on the hotel TV as he cock-slaps my face.
It’s to the point where, whenever she’s dressed up to go out, or in a bikini on vacation, I’m always right there with my i-phone camera handy, encouraging her to pose. Just more pics for my jerk-off slideshow. And more pics to get some future alpha-guy’s cock hard for when I’m back on my knees.
Anyway, I’ll stop rambling.
I just wanted to say hello to the board and see if anyone can relate or has a similar experience. I’m in TN but I travel the east coast regularly for work.
I just wanted to say hello to the group & give a little back-story of where I'm coming from...
I developed my initial cuck-curiosity, back in 2019, after my then-wife confessed to cheating on me.
I was scared of her leaving me. And rather than get angry, I made excuses for her like, “it was a wedding, you were drinking, I get it.”
I never would have expected my reaction—but very quickly—I was jerking regularly, imagining my wife getting fucked.
Then, out of nowhere, I started fantasizing about running into the guy at some future event. Like encountering him in the men’s room. Where somehow, he gets me to suck him off while telling me he’ll be fucking my wife again soon.
I’d been 100% hetero my whole life, but a few months later, I met a guy online, who was looking to get a BJ from a husband while viewing his wife pics.
When he came to town, I had a whole slideshow of my wife ready for him. Which gave it a very strong cuckold vibe.
It was my wife and her pics that he dirty-talked about as I let him basically face-fuck me. It was my wife’s boudoir pics he was looking at as he blasted off on my face.
Even though my wife wasn’t physically there, she was there in spirit and played a starring role.
When he left the hotel room, it was like I hadn’t just let myself be used and humbled, he'd used and gotten off to my wife as well.
I left feeling thoroughly humbled & cuckolded, but without any real-world consequences of being actually cuckolded. And an hour later, I could go back to my regular hum-drum life with no one the wiser.
My wife never learned of my c-sucking meetings, but for other reasons, ultimately divorced me 2.5 years ago.
I spent the next year despondent & still pining for my wife, but I’d lost all curiosity about giving another BJ.
Then, 15 months ago, by an incredible stroke of luck, I met a beautiful and voluptuous, native-american girl at a house party.
I’m thin & decent looking but I’m 37, and she’s only 25, and ridiculously out of my league. So, I’m assumed I wouldn’t make it past a 2nd date.
But incredibly, she moved in with me last January, and if things keep going well, by next year, I’ll be proposing.
Though after she moved in with me, I broke the mental seal, and began jerking off, imagining my new gf cheating on me. Which given our age difference, and the way guys are always checking her out, seems completely inevitable.
Her past boyfriend was in the military, and another was in construction. Like real alpha male types. Me—I don’t know how change a flat tire, or ride a Harley or chop down a tree. I’ve never gotten into a fist-fight, cause I know I’d get my ass kicked. I’m the antithesis of who she’s dated in the past.
It’s what she’s she says like about me, but I think she’s just too young and flirtatious not to someday wake-up, or grow bored with me.
And as my relationship-insecurity has grown, so has my desire suddenly, to suck cock and show off my girl, and be humbled again.
I already put together a progressively-more revealing slideshow of my gf that I regularly jerk off to – imagining some alpha-guy looking at my fiancé-to-be projected on the hotel TV as he cock-slaps my face.
It’s to the point where, whenever she’s dressed up to go out, or in a bikini on vacation, I’m always right there with my i-phone camera handy, encouraging her to pose. Just more pics for my jerk-off slideshow. And more pics to get some future alpha-guy’s cock hard for when I’m back on my knees.
Anyway, I’ll stop rambling.
I just wanted to say hello to the board and see if anyone can relate or has a similar experience. I’m in TN but I travel the east coast regularly for work.
