Hi to all of you,
i'm not sure if i'm right here, but i think so. Also i hope that i can find some advise or ideas or just support?????
Hi, first i should introduce my self...and sorry for my bad English. Hopefully i'm able to describe all of my brain fuck and chaos there. I'm not a cuckold i'm more a tender but dominant man. My hole live was great, i had/have a super nice wife (MD), great kids, both are out now to study, a good well trained body and i was used to have success, till i had 2 heavy accidents and later i caught a AML in addition. My wife, i know her since she was studying is 10 years younger and i'm in my later 50th. 12 year hard fight followed, wheelchair, disabled and so on..... So our sex life was not bad but also in cause of my pain and the pain killers maybe not the best. This made me sometimes sad and also i lost a bit of my ego. Meanwhile i can walk again, slowly and not to far, but i don't use the wheelchair anymore. Also i won the fight against the blood cancer. But there are still collateral damages left. And now i should come to the point why i strandet finally here. My wife had a affair i didn't know about. At the day a friend of mine told me about this, and also who was this guy, i had a bad time also i lost all of my trust and was hidden very hard by this. I'm sure some of you can understand all that brain fuck, all the chaos and all variations i was thinking about. At the end there was a mix between hate and love in waves. We decided to stay together, but i always have still a bad feeling if she is out....... And i was all the time asking my self why this why that and was it the best decision or my worst fault. Last year i start thinking about how it could work if i agree if she sleep with a other men but with clear rules and never again behind my back and always if i'm present with them. So the good old threesome i had often in my younger years before i was married with a lot of fun for all. Also i started to understand what happens at the time she had this relation. Her mother was dying from one second to the next without
any signs or warnings before. She was also MD, but she was the last of her direct relatives. At the same time i had a bad sepsis so it looked like that i will follow her mom maybe some days later. So she was falling in a heavy emotional panic and psych state and went to our catholic priest to find solace and the hope that i will survive. This idiot (sorry) had nothing in his head then to exploit this situation. So he was this affair. If some of you thinking, that is a nice fictive story, it is not but i wish it was. So i learned to forgive her (not him - and he is not longer a catholic priest, they fired him, a very rare thing) Never mess with the wrong people....... Finally a last thing left in my brain. I'm still disabled even it is much better, but also i still love my wife. So i was reading a lot about wife sharing and so on if it could be a possibility for me and her to handle the situation better then before. I'm ok with this idea if we declare clear rules. She isn't ready for such a part time lifestyle. Last year she agreed that we can try it one time. We was doing it exactly this one time. This was not nice for her and also not for me. The guy we found together under male high class escorts, was looking nice with a great body. So we started to fast, maybe totally wrong, and this guy was not a real gentlemen, rough (she don't like to be handled like that) and far away from tender or careful. So we or better i stopped it immediately at the moment i saw her face and her eyes and kicked him out of the hotel room. This was maybe a big mistake. Not kicking him out but starting such a experience with a guy like him.
Since this time she denied strictly another try with a more gentle guy. Also we will not take anyone we know. But i don't know why, i can't get it out of my head, so i was starting again talking to her about this and also that i wanna see her more sexual satisfied. She agreed slowly with role play things and yesterday she allows me to take some picture and a short vid. But only from her intimate parts and i must promise, no face or something that anyone recognize her or me. Also that i will not publish this vids without her permission, but some pictures are OK for her. So i will do exactly this. Also she allows me to write this part of our story and she will think about to allows me to upload maybe a part of that vids we done last night. Also she is interested how the reactions are and so on........ Maybe this could be a possibility to start slowly and open the way for a next hopefully better try. We hope you like the pics........
i'm not sure if i'm right here, but i think so. Also i hope that i can find some advise or ideas or just support?????
Hi, first i should introduce my self...and sorry for my bad English. Hopefully i'm able to describe all of my brain fuck and chaos there. I'm not a cuckold i'm more a tender but dominant man. My hole live was great, i had/have a super nice wife (MD), great kids, both are out now to study, a good well trained body and i was used to have success, till i had 2 heavy accidents and later i caught a AML in addition. My wife, i know her since she was studying is 10 years younger and i'm in my later 50th. 12 year hard fight followed, wheelchair, disabled and so on..... So our sex life was not bad but also in cause of my pain and the pain killers maybe not the best. This made me sometimes sad and also i lost a bit of my ego. Meanwhile i can walk again, slowly and not to far, but i don't use the wheelchair anymore. Also i won the fight against the blood cancer. But there are still collateral damages left. And now i should come to the point why i strandet finally here. My wife had a affair i didn't know about. At the day a friend of mine told me about this, and also who was this guy, i had a bad time also i lost all of my trust and was hidden very hard by this. I'm sure some of you can understand all that brain fuck, all the chaos and all variations i was thinking about. At the end there was a mix between hate and love in waves. We decided to stay together, but i always have still a bad feeling if she is out....... And i was all the time asking my self why this why that and was it the best decision or my worst fault. Last year i start thinking about how it could work if i agree if she sleep with a other men but with clear rules and never again behind my back and always if i'm present with them. So the good old threesome i had often in my younger years before i was married with a lot of fun for all. Also i started to understand what happens at the time she had this relation. Her mother was dying from one second to the next without
any signs or warnings before. She was also MD, but she was the last of her direct relatives. At the same time i had a bad sepsis so it looked like that i will follow her mom maybe some days later. So she was falling in a heavy emotional panic and psych state and went to our catholic priest to find solace and the hope that i will survive. This idiot (sorry) had nothing in his head then to exploit this situation. So he was this affair. If some of you thinking, that is a nice fictive story, it is not but i wish it was. So i learned to forgive her (not him - and he is not longer a catholic priest, they fired him, a very rare thing) Never mess with the wrong people....... Finally a last thing left in my brain. I'm still disabled even it is much better, but also i still love my wife. So i was reading a lot about wife sharing and so on if it could be a possibility for me and her to handle the situation better then before. I'm ok with this idea if we declare clear rules. She isn't ready for such a part time lifestyle. Last year she agreed that we can try it one time. We was doing it exactly this one time. This was not nice for her and also not for me. The guy we found together under male high class escorts, was looking nice with a great body. So we started to fast, maybe totally wrong, and this guy was not a real gentlemen, rough (she don't like to be handled like that) and far away from tender or careful. So we or better i stopped it immediately at the moment i saw her face and her eyes and kicked him out of the hotel room. This was maybe a big mistake. Not kicking him out but starting such a experience with a guy like him.
Since this time she denied strictly another try with a more gentle guy. Also we will not take anyone we know. But i don't know why, i can't get it out of my head, so i was starting again talking to her about this and also that i wanna see her more sexual satisfied. She agreed slowly with role play things and yesterday she allows me to take some picture and a short vid. But only from her intimate parts and i must promise, no face or something that anyone recognize her or me. Also that i will not publish this vids without her permission, but some pictures are OK for her. So i will do exactly this. Also she allows me to write this part of our story and she will think about to allows me to upload maybe a part of that vids we done last night. Also she is interested how the reactions are and so on........ Maybe this could be a possibility to start slowly and open the way for a next hopefully better try. We hope you like the pics........
