How common is to a guy with Conservative background who got rejected by women in early life become a cuck?

First couple years i discovered this i felt shame and guilt now feel like i'm all in and i don't think I'll be satisfy with a normal relationship . I'm a 25old Asian guy .Only have one gf in my life and she dump me never even had to chance have sex with her. She made me very sad and disappointed about myself .I blamed me for her leaving .Now I'm here looking be become a cuck and it's not a problem for me but i don't think i'll stop there now i'm single but thinking about chastity .never felt lost in life like this .