Well it’s been around 10 years now since my ex fiancé and I broke up and besides the lying, I’m really missing all the fun we were having!! Sometimes I wonder if I should have just put up with the lies and kept our lifestyle still alive! All I have left are the memories and only a few pics and videos, and as I get older, those are getting harder and more difficult to remember when I try to relive many of the events, or the challenge of keeping each experience in the correct order of which they happened! I think, at least at this point, what I regret the most is all the opportunities I had to film and record so many of the events and experiences we went through, and deleting many of the ones I did!! I recall the times that I thought about grabbing my camera or even my phone to record what was going on, but I was often caught between being too afraid of interfering and disrupting the action that was happening, and the many times I was so caught up in watching it or being involved in it, that I just didn’t think about it at that moment!! After we had broken up and I began getting involved in new relationships, I deleted so many things so I didn’t jeopardize the new relationship, along with having a couple of laptops that I had most of the pictures and videos uploaded to stop working and I can’t access any of the files!! I still have the laptops and have often considered taking them somewhere or to someone that might be able to still retrieve them if possible! I had some really great items that I’d love to share with you all, but am unable to, at least for now anyway... Anyone else out there that can relate to my frustrations??
