Thank you all so much for the positive comments. I really appreciate them. They make me feel like I'm not doing anything wrong.
Just a quick update, but this time with a lot of questions on my part.
None of us were at work this week. As I mentioned before, we got together with a few friends. I had planned to meet up with my besti on Friday afternoon. My husband didn't bring up D. on his own.
It was Thursday night and we were getting ready to go to bed together. As we were getting into bed, we talked about our day and fooled around a bit. In the end, he was horny again and said he'd be right back. I stopped him and said he can jerk off next to me. He started jerking and I watched. I don't like giving head. My husband requested it in the past often, but it's disgusting for me as soon I taste precum. He knows that. But this time I took over and startet to blow him. It was obvious that he enjoyed it a lot (closed his eyes, heave breathing, rest his head on my thigh and caressed my butt). I mentioned that I had to thought about D.'s questions about a date. My husband said nothing, I wasn't sure if he realized what I said. So I continued and said that I will meet him tomorrow afternoon (Friday afternoon). I continued giving head for some minutes until I tasted some precum. I stopped and said he can finish by his own. He was reluctant and said that he wants sex. Then he surprised me a little, because he said that was fine with him, as long as he could have sex with me now. I rode him, to my surprise he lasted longer than expected, I also achieved a little orgasm. Because of that, I had to ask him why he lasted longer and he answered that he jerked off almost every day since last weekend. I also asked him about the date with D. and he mentioned that he's fine with that and that he loves me.
Some conclusions I made: Giving him a blowjob is his kryptonite + I always thought he got really turned on and that that was the reason for this problem. I expected he wouldn't last very long.
The weather the whole week was very changeable. On Friday I just rained in the morning and then it was warm and really good in the afternoon. I decided to wear a dress. Therefore I asked my husband which one he likes. I never does it normally, only when we both go out. He didn't say anything about the date, he just picked one that he liked. I said goodbye to him, kissed him and said "See you later". He told me to take care of myself.
It was a nice afternoon of course and my besti was surprised a little bit. I haven't seen her for a couple of weeks, so we had a lot to talk. I wrote my husband sometimes a message that everything is fine, he reacted each time with "👍". It was getting later than expected, so we decided to have dinner together. I wrote my husband to let him know I'd be late and he don't need to worry. I told he should just eat alone. He read the message but didn't reacted. I have to admit that it made me nervous.
As I came home, he sat on the couch and watched TV. He greeted me, I gave him a kiss. But then questioning began:
- Was everything okay?
- Why did it take so long?
- What were you doing?
- Did he behave?
- Where were we?
- Were we alone or with others?
He was upset and worried because, as usual, we wanted to have dinner together. I don't know what he did while he was waiting. But I'm sure his emotions were on a roller coaster. I had to calm him down and told him that we had met in a park and had a cup of coffee. After that, we took a walk around the lake. He asked is nothing happen more. I was intimidated. We didn't have a fight. Looking back, he asked calmly. But I felt there was an uncomfortable tension in the room. I changed my clothes, went over to him, gave him a hug and asked him cheerfully if he was perhaps jealous. Since I managed to turn the whole thing into a joke, he had to smile and said he wasn't jealous and would actually like to meet him too.
What do you think of his reaction?
And please don't say he was happy I was on a date just because most other men would want that.
Everything was fine today. We spent the whole day in the garden and had a barbecue with friends.