UPDATE:
So…the date yesterday was amazing, on every level imaginable. Our connection is genuine, the chemistry was something I wasn’t expecting but it felt so natural, the sex was, by far, the most amazing experience of my life. I’ve never felt more seen and heard, in every way imaginable than I did with him.
But there are mixed emotions. Even though my husband wanted this and was excited to hear about it I still feel guilt. And maybe it’s because I feel an emotional connection to this older man, and I know it’s partially because I’ve never gotten off so easily or so often in my life.
My head is all over the place right now though. He and I chatted all night after the date and time we spent together and he is feeling some very similar emotions, which I think in a way gives me a bit of peace.
Is this normal to be having these emotions? My husband, and his wife both seem genuinely excited and happy for us and that is easily the most important part of all of this
I really, really like this older man. I can’t stop thinking about him or the time we spent together for a good portion of the day and evening yesterday.