Dear fellow cucks,
I have already been reading a lot of threads here but now I finally decided to sign up and share something too. I am a 40 years old sub/cuck and in an FLR/cuckoldrelationship. I would like to share my evolution and some observations of my experience as a cuck and I would like to know if other cucks experience the same.
Already for 10 years I was interested in cuckolding. It started as a new porn genre to jerk off but I became very interested in it and 5 years ago I was very serious about finding a cuckold relationship. Quickly I found out this is almost impossible. So I figured I had to find a woman who has everything in it to be a cuckoldress but is simply not aware of it. 3 years later I was lucky to find my cuckoldress. When we met we met in a Tinder date vanilla situation. But quickly I found out she had several personality characteristics to be a cuckoldress.
I was very much driven by my fantasies and in my imagination everything was going to be as my wildest fantasies. After discussing a bit about these things she directly got very interested but at the same time it was quite a lot for her. She was more interested in FLR and having a sub, having an one sided open relationship. My fetishes' like being denied, cleaning up, watching and humiliation were all too much for her. In the beginning I was a very controlling sub. I was pushing a lot and asking a lot of questions about when she is going to date etc. Always hoping she would have me there during her dates. But the reality was much different and after 2 years I can finally say I really understand and learned what it is to be a cuck. And because of that she also treating me as such.
So what is being a cuck (in our relationship). Having sex with other guys is completely to satisfy her needs and not mine. When the cuck will be watching it feels like she has to perform instead of enjoying the sex, also for the bull it will probably feel like that. I have nothing to say about who, how often where and when she is having sex. She is not a cuckoldress to entertain me. So practically it means that she has only 1 on 1 dates with her bulls. I will not be home or she will be going to their place. When I am very lucky I can stay at home if the bull is ok with that, if not, I have to leave the house for 2-3 hours.
Finding bulls
I didn't expect this but the hardest part is finding bulls. If I was born dominant I would really like the idea of being a bull, but for most guys this is not what they want at all. They want just a girl for themself. My girlfriend is super hot, model, gym body etc. So there isn't any man who doesn't want to fuck her. But the problem is more that she doesn't want to fuck 99% of the men out there. She only want to fuck for her own pleasure since she is not submissive toward bulls. She only wants a guy when the guy is model level attractive, is muscular, tall and has at least an average dick (when the dick is average she probably doesn't gonna fuck him again). But to make a guy a regular he has to have a big dick. Also out of experience she only likes young guys less then 30, but also not too young because then they are little boys. So now the problem comes. On all kinky platforms like Feeld, Fetlife Kinked out of every 100 profiles maximum 1 guy will be interesting for her. On vanilla dating platforms it is more, but then the problem is that those guys are vanilla and in most cases not interested in a woman who has a boyfriend. Then when she finally found a hot guy, sometimes they are weird, stupid, dump or some other problem.
Another problem is that the guys she likes, are the most likable profiles on the dating platforms and all other hot girls are also in the race who are really single and are not in a cuckolding relationship. She had a really hot bull with a big dick who had a master degree and was had a successful career as a model. But then after a few months he couldn't handle the fact she had a boyfriend so he moved on.
Now she is seeing another really hot guy who has real bull potential. She is kind of training him step by step to get more used to the fact that he can be her bull. Since she is getting more used to his 17 cm around and 20 cm dick she noticed she is no longer interested in fucking me. And naturally she really developed more into a cuckoldress of my dreams without me try to control. So the relationship is finally evolving in a real cuckolding situation.
There is 1 other promising candidate and when that is going to work out she will have 2 hot bulls living nearby that can sexually satisfy her and I will become her real cuck who is not going to have her pussy anymore. I am in a cage and she will not have orgasms anymore (only if a got really really lucky). But if i am lucky she will peg me and I can be milked. Being milked is already a privilege she said. She also started to enjoy giving me sloppy seconds. This happened twice now. She fucked her bull and I was allowed to stay home in the living room. I didn't meet him yet btw because he is not ready for that. So when he comes inside her pussy she quickly went to the living room and sit on my face so I could lick and swallow it. After a few seconds she left again to go back to him. She also started to like to humiliate more about my position as a cuck. Telling me her pussy is not for me anymore and that my dick is too boring for her because now she has much better sex with her bull.
What are your experiences and thoughts about the following things:
- hard time finding bulls
- being a cuck means in almost all cases that you won't be involved during the date, only before and after.
I have already been reading a lot of threads here but now I finally decided to sign up and share something too. I am a 40 years old sub/cuck and in an FLR/cuckoldrelationship. I would like to share my evolution and some observations of my experience as a cuck and I would like to know if other cucks experience the same.
Already for 10 years I was interested in cuckolding. It started as a new porn genre to jerk off but I became very interested in it and 5 years ago I was very serious about finding a cuckold relationship. Quickly I found out this is almost impossible. So I figured I had to find a woman who has everything in it to be a cuckoldress but is simply not aware of it. 3 years later I was lucky to find my cuckoldress. When we met we met in a Tinder date vanilla situation. But quickly I found out she had several personality characteristics to be a cuckoldress.
I was very much driven by my fantasies and in my imagination everything was going to be as my wildest fantasies. After discussing a bit about these things she directly got very interested but at the same time it was quite a lot for her. She was more interested in FLR and having a sub, having an one sided open relationship. My fetishes' like being denied, cleaning up, watching and humiliation were all too much for her. In the beginning I was a very controlling sub. I was pushing a lot and asking a lot of questions about when she is going to date etc. Always hoping she would have me there during her dates. But the reality was much different and after 2 years I can finally say I really understand and learned what it is to be a cuck. And because of that she also treating me as such.
So what is being a cuck (in our relationship). Having sex with other guys is completely to satisfy her needs and not mine. When the cuck will be watching it feels like she has to perform instead of enjoying the sex, also for the bull it will probably feel like that. I have nothing to say about who, how often where and when she is having sex. She is not a cuckoldress to entertain me. So practically it means that she has only 1 on 1 dates with her bulls. I will not be home or she will be going to their place. When I am very lucky I can stay at home if the bull is ok with that, if not, I have to leave the house for 2-3 hours.
Finding bulls
I didn't expect this but the hardest part is finding bulls. If I was born dominant I would really like the idea of being a bull, but for most guys this is not what they want at all. They want just a girl for themself. My girlfriend is super hot, model, gym body etc. So there isn't any man who doesn't want to fuck her. But the problem is more that she doesn't want to fuck 99% of the men out there. She only want to fuck for her own pleasure since she is not submissive toward bulls. She only wants a guy when the guy is model level attractive, is muscular, tall and has at least an average dick (when the dick is average she probably doesn't gonna fuck him again). But to make a guy a regular he has to have a big dick. Also out of experience she only likes young guys less then 30, but also not too young because then they are little boys. So now the problem comes. On all kinky platforms like Feeld, Fetlife Kinked out of every 100 profiles maximum 1 guy will be interesting for her. On vanilla dating platforms it is more, but then the problem is that those guys are vanilla and in most cases not interested in a woman who has a boyfriend. Then when she finally found a hot guy, sometimes they are weird, stupid, dump or some other problem.
Another problem is that the guys she likes, are the most likable profiles on the dating platforms and all other hot girls are also in the race who are really single and are not in a cuckolding relationship. She had a really hot bull with a big dick who had a master degree and was had a successful career as a model. But then after a few months he couldn't handle the fact she had a boyfriend so he moved on.
Now she is seeing another really hot guy who has real bull potential. She is kind of training him step by step to get more used to the fact that he can be her bull. Since she is getting more used to his 17 cm around and 20 cm dick she noticed she is no longer interested in fucking me. And naturally she really developed more into a cuckoldress of my dreams without me try to control. So the relationship is finally evolving in a real cuckolding situation.
There is 1 other promising candidate and when that is going to work out she will have 2 hot bulls living nearby that can sexually satisfy her and I will become her real cuck who is not going to have her pussy anymore. I am in a cage and she will not have orgasms anymore (only if a got really really lucky). But if i am lucky she will peg me and I can be milked. Being milked is already a privilege she said. She also started to enjoy giving me sloppy seconds. This happened twice now. She fucked her bull and I was allowed to stay home in the living room. I didn't meet him yet btw because he is not ready for that. So when he comes inside her pussy she quickly went to the living room and sit on my face so I could lick and swallow it. After a few seconds she left again to go back to him. She also started to like to humiliate more about my position as a cuck. Telling me her pussy is not for me anymore and that my dick is too boring for her because now she has much better sex with her bull.
What are your experiences and thoughts about the following things:
- hard time finding bulls
- being a cuck means in almost all cases that you won't be involved during the date, only before and after.
