My learnings after 2 years cuckolding relationship

Dear fellow cucks,

I have already been reading a lot of threads here but now I finally decided to sign up and share something too. I am a 40 years old sub/cuck and in an FLR/cuckoldrelationship. I would like to share my evolution and some observations of my experience as a cuck and I would like to know if other cucks experience the same.

Already for 10 years I was interested in cuckolding. It started as a new porn genre to jerk off but I became very interested in it and 5 years ago I was very serious about finding a cuckold relationship. Quickly I found out this is almost impossible. So I figured I had to find a woman who has everything in it to be a cuckoldress but is simply not aware of it. 3 years later I was lucky to find my cuckoldress. When we met we met in a Tinder date vanilla situation. But quickly I found out she had several personality characteristics to be a cuckoldress.
I was very much driven by my fantasies and in my imagination everything was going to be as my wildest fantasies. After discussing a bit about these things she directly got very interested but at the same time it was quite a lot for her. She was more interested in FLR and having a sub, having an one sided open relationship. My fetishes' like being denied, cleaning up, watching and humiliation were all too much for her. In the beginning I was a very controlling sub. I was pushing a lot and asking a lot of questions about when she is going to date etc. Always hoping she would have me there during her dates. But the reality was much different and after 2 years I can finally say I really understand and learned what it is to be a cuck. And because of that she also treating me as such.

So what is being a cuck (in our relationship). Having sex with other guys is completely to satisfy her needs and not mine. When the cuck will be watching it feels like she has to perform instead of enjoying the sex, also for the bull it will probably feel like that. I have nothing to say about who, how often where and when she is having sex. She is not a cuckoldress to entertain me. So practically it means that she has only 1 on 1 dates with her bulls. I will not be home or she will be going to their place. When I am very lucky I can stay at home if the bull is ok with that, if not, I have to leave the house for 2-3 hours.

Finding bulls
I didn't expect this but the hardest part is finding bulls. If I was born dominant I would really like the idea of being a bull, but for most guys this is not what they want at all. They want just a girl for themself. My girlfriend is super hot, model, gym body etc. So there isn't any man who doesn't want to fuck her. But the problem is more that she doesn't want to fuck 99% of the men out there. She only want to fuck for her own pleasure since she is not submissive toward bulls. She only wants a guy when the guy is model level attractive, is muscular, tall and has at least an average dick (when the dick is average she probably doesn't gonna fuck him again). But to make a guy a regular he has to have a big dick. Also out of experience she only likes young guys less then 30, but also not too young because then they are little boys. So now the problem comes. On all kinky platforms like Feeld, Fetlife Kinked out of every 100 profiles maximum 1 guy will be interesting for her. On vanilla dating platforms it is more, but then the problem is that those guys are vanilla and in most cases not interested in a woman who has a boyfriend. Then when she finally found a hot guy, sometimes they are weird, stupid, dump or some other problem.

Another problem is that the guys she likes, are the most likable profiles on the dating platforms and all other hot girls are also in the race who are really single and are not in a cuckolding relationship. She had a really hot bull with a big dick who had a master degree and was had a successful career as a model. But then after a few months he couldn't handle the fact she had a boyfriend so he moved on.

Now she is seeing another really hot guy who has real bull potential. She is kind of training him step by step to get more used to the fact that he can be her bull. Since she is getting more used to his 17 cm around and 20 cm dick she noticed she is no longer interested in fucking me. And naturally she really developed more into a cuckoldress of my dreams without me try to control. So the relationship is finally evolving in a real cuckolding situation.
There is 1 other promising candidate and when that is going to work out she will have 2 hot bulls living nearby that can sexually satisfy her and I will become her real cuck who is not going to have her pussy anymore. I am in a cage and she will not have orgasms anymore (only if a got really really lucky). But if i am lucky she will peg me and I can be milked. Being milked is already a privilege she said. She also started to enjoy giving me sloppy seconds. This happened twice now. She fucked her bull and I was allowed to stay home in the living room. I didn't meet him yet btw because he is not ready for that. So when he comes inside her pussy she quickly went to the living room and sit on my face so I could lick and swallow it. After a few seconds she left again to go back to him. She also started to like to humiliate more about my position as a cuck. Telling me her pussy is not for me anymore and that my dick is too boring for her because now she has much better sex with her bull.

What are your experiences and thoughts about the following things:

- hard time finding bulls
- being a cuck means in almost all cases that you won't be involved during the date, only before and after.
 
My wife is still with the man she started the journey with and it has been over 5 years. We have had some come and go, but she currently has 3 boyfriends and it been for a couple of years.

On this journey, except right at the very beginning, I dress her for her dates. Sometimes she licks the outfit, sometimes I get too. When it is all over and she is still wearing something, I will take it off her. As for the actual date, sometimes they go out, sometimes we go out, but they come back to our house and I watch as they make love to one another, my cage cock crying the whole time.
 
My wife's main and regular bull is also a long term friend. In fact he was best man at our wedding. They don't just have casual sex, they are also romantically bonded. That is, they go on vacations, celebrate holidays together, give gifts to each other etc. I'm left out of most of that and act as my wife's clean up boy and domestic servant. We are in a FLM and I vowed my obedience to her at the alter when we married. I knew from the start that my life with her would be pussy free and our best man just fell into the position of bull and assumed the husbandly duties/privileges while I was only her husband on paper. My life now is one of pathetically pining for her as I watch them play, flirt and make love and enjoy a loving and sexual relationship. I'm the boy around the house and he is clearly the man. The only way I'm allowed to interact with my wife is orally by cleaning her up sometimes after they fuck and by doing personal attendance like bathing her and helping her get ready for dates or for work. I have a micro penis and a submissive nature which my wife takes full advantage of and I know this is the only way I can interact with a woman. I enjoy this treatment because of my masochistic drives and it was fortunate for us both that her lover just happened to be there from the start. I'm in my place when I'm serving him as the master of the house while he takes care of my wife's sexual and romantic needs.
 
What are your experiences and thoughts about the following things:

- hard time finding bulls
- being a cuck means in almost all cases that you won't be involved during the date, only before and after.
Thanks for sharing your story and thoughts on the cuckold lifestyle. Like you I found it through porn and it grew on my - initially I met with a number of couples as a bull, then with my current gf of 6 years being a cuck appealed more and more to me.

We found a lot of guys who say they are up to the task of being a bull -
-Dont show up for first meet - which if it goes well we're happy to progress straight to sex.
-Are just single guys wanting her only and no consideration to our relationship
-Disrectful, not in our criteria and just plain awful
-Unwilling to provide a recent STI check, She only fucks raw and both of us love creampies. So an STI check is vital.

However we did find plenty of good candidates - usually guys 30+ and older who have experience as bulls are 'professional' for want of a better word.

Initially I was present when my hotwife played with the bull, then as we grew more comfortable she would go on solo dates with her regular bull. I've found this hugely exciting - however I still REALLY enjoy when I'm present. I dont think being a cuck doesnt exclude you from being involved if your present, I feel you it is a given that you are secondary to the hotwife and the bull intimacy.
 
My cuckold life to the hotwife is very similar in that I’m no longer allowed access but rarely, sometime with a condom and always with the job of orally making her squirt and then approximately 2 minutes to get a condom on and cum in her…if not by the deadline, I’m denied. I get off 10% of those rare times she lets me have her. I’m never allowed to watch and told to get them a drink, chat for 2 minutes and then go to the guest bedroom as they use the marital bed in the master bedroom. Finding bulls is difficult but when u find one and they connect, she will see him every 2 weeks….current is coming up on 2 years. He’s probably had him in her 60-70 times and I have been able to cum in my condom in her maybe 15 times over the 2 years. She’s fucked him bareback for the last 18 months….coinciding w me wearing a condom….she does 69, anal, various positions, all things she won’t consider or never had done b4 being a hotwife 18 years ago. This is what it’s like as a married cuckold to a hotwife
 
My cuckold life to the hotwife is very similar in that I’m no longer allowed access but rarely, sometime with a condom and always with the job of orally making her squirt and then approximately 2 minutes to get a condom on and cum in her…if not by the deadline, I’m denied. I get off 10% of those rare times she lets me have her. I’m never allowed to watch and told to get them a drink, chat for 2 minutes and then go to the guest bedroom as they use the marital bed in the master bedroom. Finding bulls is difficult but when u find one and they connect, she will see him every 2 weeks….current is coming up on 2 years. He’s probably had him in her 60-70 times and I have been able to cum in my condom in her maybe 15 times over the 2 years. She’s fucked him bareback for the last 18 months….coinciding w me wearing a condom….she does 69, anal, various positions, all things she won’t consider or never had done b4 being a hotwife 18 years ago. This is what it’s like as a married cuckold to a hotwife
Do you have to eat her creampie after they fuck?
 
Do you feel that you are an inferior male?
It’s just fine that another man is better at sexual expression than oneself, I think. It shouldn’t be a question of inferiority, IMO, as an attitude like that only points to a feeling of failure. I’m a great guy! I have lots of friends. I’m just a lousy fuck. She gets better. Why would I deny her?
 
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My hotwife has had a real tough time finding a reliable guy to be her bull even though she's hot. She's tried fetlife and now she just posted her profile on Adultfrienfinder.
We found Cathy her last four lovers (the last one she's been with for over four years) on Ashley Madison. It's a web site created for cheating wives to find lovers. Men have to pay for the membership (no free membership) and also have to pay to send a message to a lady. Women don't pay a dime for anything at all. We found this to be so much better than AFF or any of the other ones because since men have to pay, there are far less idiots on there just looking for free photos and chat. Every fellow she was with from AM were decent guys. The first two ended up meeting someone they could live with and the third one she had to leave when we moved four and a half years ago. The man she's with now is very nice, has lots of money to spoil her with, large cock and a very great lover. This one is the first one she's ever fallen in love with which I don't mind for reasons I won't get into in this comment lol. I just wanted to let you know about AM and since it's free for women, it won't hurt for you to give it a try, I think you'll find that it's a good site. Your wife should have a wonderful lover in no time.
 
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How does one prove that she is a woman and not a guy posing as a woman.
Here? I'd say you get verified. I'm honest out the gate and let everyone know I'm not a genetic female, don't know why anyone would want to pretend to be... I wouldn't. Elsewhere...? Good question.
 
Here? I'd say you get verified. I'm honest out the gate and let everyone know I'm not a genetic female, don't know why anyone would want to pretend to be... I wouldn't. Elsewhere...? Good question.
No hun, I was referring to Cuckoldhubby's post about the Ashley Madison web sight where women get membership free.
 
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No hun, I was referring to Cuckoldhubby's post about the Ashley Madison web sight where women get membership free.
I guess I should've thumbed back a bit more. That is a good question though, I mean someone like me could claim "female" and go sign up for free and get a meal ticket. I'm not female, never will be, no matter how much I dress up or how I look. That's not fair to the "real" women in this world but...
 
I guess I should've thumbed back a bit more. That is a good question though, I mean someone like me could claim "female" and go sign up for free and get a meal ticket. I'm not female, never will be, no matter how much I dress up or how I look. That's not fair to the "real" women in this world but...
That's a healthy and kind attitude.
 
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No hun, I was referring to Cuckoldhubby's post about the Ashley Madison web sight where women get membership free.
I was confused as to whom you were talking to as well lol. I have no idea but being that it was my wife we were setting up the account for that wasn't a concern for us since she wasn't looking for a woman lol. Every one of the men she chatted with on there who she felt were a "possibility" she asked them for a phone number. She called them with her number blocked (which they were told she would be doing) and after the chat (pretty easy for the fellow to know she wasn't a guy trying to sound female lol) if she liked the fellow's chat and felt that he was worth meeting, we met with him at a public place like a pub for lunch or dinner. They were always told that I would be joining for the first couple of meetings then she was on her own after that. Again, not that it was of our concern if someone tries to act as a woman, if any man thought that she might have been fake then it's their prerogative to try with her or not and she wouldn't have cared because she had at least a dozen men per day trying to contact her (about 3 of those being more local, the rest too far for her to be interested). From what I remember of the web site they have some procedures for women to register that helps to prove that they are indeed female, but even then if some guy was trying to pass himself off as female a fellow talking to him wouldn't be sticking around talking for long once they've found that the "fake" woman can't or won't meet with him as most fakes would be doing. If the "fake" decided to meet then I guess the fellow meeting him would be in for a bit of a shock LOL. Anyway, this website proved to be the best for finding a decent guy than any of the others, I would assume being because that men have to pay and the majority of the idiots don't want to pay for something they know they're not going to get anything out of being that they are just picture hounds. The worst one that my wife was on was AFF, the idiots were like flies there, only looking for pics to jack off to or only wanting to talk sexy talk then disappear when it got to a possible meeting. It got to the point where she was seriously thinking about giving up her search until we discovered Ashely Madison by accident. Someone in another group mentioned it so we checked it out and liked what we saw and after signing up it was so nice that she wasn't being inundated with stupid requests (there will always be some but there was far less than what she had happening to her on the others).
 
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I was confused as to whom you were talking to as well lol. I have no idea but being that it was my wife we were setting up the account for that wasn't a concern for us since she wasn't looking for a woman lol. Every one of the men she chatted with on there who she felt were a "possibility" she asked them for a phone number. She called them with her number blocked (which they were told she would be doing) and after the chat (pretty easy for the fellow to know she wasn't a guy trying to sound female lol) if she liked the fellow's chat and felt that he was worth meeting, we met with him at a public place like a pub for lunch or dinner. They were always told that I would be joining for the first couple of meetings then she was on her own after that. Again, not that it was of our concern if someone tries to act as a woman, if any man thought that she might have been fake then it's their prerogative to try with her or not and she wouldn't have cared because she had at least a dozen men per day trying to contact her (about 3 of those being more local, the rest too far for her to be interested). From what I remember of the web site they have some procedures for women to register that helps to prove that they are indeed female, but even then if some guy was trying to pass himself off as female a fellow talking to him wouldn't be sticking around talking for long once they've found that the "fake" woman can't or won't meet with him as most fakes would be doing. If the "fake" decided to meet then I guess the fellow meeting him would be in for a bit of a shock LOL. Anyway, this website proved to be the best for finding a decent guy than any of the others, I would assume being because that men have to pay and the majority of the idiots don't want to pay for something they know they're not going to get anything out of being that they are just picture hounds. The worst one that my wife was on was AFF, the idiots were like flies there, only looking for pics to jack off to or only wanting to talk sexy talk then disappear when it got to a possible meeting. It got to the point where she was seriously thinking about giving up her search until we discovered Ashely Madison by accident. Someone in another group mentioned it so we checked it out and liked what we saw and after signing up it was so nice that she wasn't being inundated with stupid requests (there will always be some but there was far less than what she had happening to her on the others).
Thank you for the explaination.
 
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