We haven't crossed the line yet, but we've made a little bit of progress. After the wife and I spoke more about some of her wants including bdsm (which we dabble) and her desire to experience more of it, also that I wouldn’t be present for her first time, there has been some slight changes. She has began chatting with a Dom from our area that she met on FetLife.
All kind of a curveball in how we discussed things starting out. I'm a little reserved to have her dominated like that in a BDSM sense before we even explore rough vanilla open play, but I also know that's her kink and I would like to respect her wants too but the not being there for the first time has me feeling uneasy. (Guy also wants to remain out of video but will do pov style)
In some ways I feel like it's a complete 180 from being there, regular banging, and recording it, .......to wants to be alone with Dom, experience bdsm play, and no full recording. I'm conflicted.
My natural reaction was objection, I got pissed. This was not what we had discussed and talked about. We had a small verbal back n forth and went to bed. Of course as fate has it, I happened to have an erotic dream about me being her total cuck.
I woke up with a 6in cock so hard I could've broke through ice or some ....... I reflected on our discussion and the dream. She was right, her opinion in all of this is not only completely valid, but most important. She has her kinks too. I wrote her a lengthy apology for the way I acted and accepted that she be allowed to pick the who, where, when and how, in all of this. That her pussy was her choice..... (or however that saying goes) and I'm loyal to her sexual prowess, my cock and sexual release are at her disposal.