Where I’m trying to get:
As I said, I have always fantasised about being cucked and am aroused by much of the content of this site [I find the ‘real’ stuff much more of a turn on than the fictional prose and videos all over the net]. I do not think I could ever handle it actually happening but I would like a bit of cuck play in the bedroom.
To this end, in my possession are a number of toys that I have not yet had the courage/ opportunity to use with a partner. this includes:
- RodeOH crotchless panties strap on-harness. Note this harness includes a pouch for a bullet vibrator or could accommodate a double ended affair.
- a 5” x 1.5” dildo [My wife knows I play with this solo but has not expressed much interest in assisting me]
- two cock sleeves – one that fits perfectly on the dildo to make it pretty much an identical size to my own penis and another that fits my erection perfectly to give me an extra inch of length and about an extra half inch of girth.
So there are three things I would like to try not necessarily in any order:
- have my wife ride the dildo [preferably with at least one of the slaves on] while I service her orally
- penetrate My wife with the largest sleeve on [or her take the dildo with both sleeves on]
- have my wife peg me with the smaller sleeve on - I have been able to take it solo to the point that I can now easily take it without the sleeve. I can now vouch for myself that size does indeed matter. That extra girth and length is so much more satisfying even anally.
Where we are now:
My wife started a new job about a year ago after taking a course online during the pandemic that allowed her to get better work for better pay - on the odd occasion where she has pulled a lot of overtime she has earned more than me on payday. I have made leading comments on such occasions such as “you are the man of the house now” just trying to plant the seed for a good solid pegging.
At her previous work most of her colleagues were similar to her in that they were married and seemingly resigned to a life of monogamy born out of custom and/or financial dependence. At her new employer, she is now settled into regular shifts and has a small circle of female confidantes with a very interesting dynamic. I will list them below with pseudonyms. As many of the readers will be viewing this for titillation I will include a brief physical description noting that they're all Filipino.
April: A divorcee with one chyld. She has always been gay but married to escape the situation she was in when young but some years back came out to her now ex husband. My wife told me recently of a dream about April showing her the strap on she uses with her partner. When I asked if it went any further my wife made a face that indicated her heterosexuality is more staunch than mine. My wife also mentioned recently that April was looking at her in a way that made her slightly uncomfortable and commenting that she was “beautiful”. April is Early 40s with perfect skin. She is only slightly shorter than me I would guess 5 foot 8. body is a bit of a mystery to me as I have not seen her wear anything remotely revealing.
May: A friend of my wife's from her previous employer who took the same course and move to the same job a year previous to my wife. May recently separated acrimoniously from her husband. There have been a number of unexplained absences in engagements from work and social situations. Possibly reuniting with the ex, attending therapy or as I said to my wife “maybe she's just enjoying being single”. May is Mid-to-late 40s, and having not had children has maintained a very trim, petite figure with legs that would not be out of place on the catwalk.
Julie: Is married to a man about one decade her senior who returned home for a holiday in the UK recently where Julie learned he had cheated on her. About last week I was told that they were staying together for the sake of their sun. The twist is that they have agreed it will be an open relationship. When I asked if this was at the husband’s bidding as I had assumed I was in fact told no, it was Julie's demand. Julie is late 30s with something of a homely figure, probably a size 10 to 12 standing roughly 5 foot 4. She does have a sexy countenance that I suspect could lead to some attitude in the bedroom.
June: also married [there are about two decades between them]. Apparently when they were discussing julie's problems June said that she knew her husband who travels a lot was most likely cheating. Her opinion was that she wasn't bothered as long as he kept supplying the money for her beauty regimen [which includes getting work done]. She maintains a very trim figure and could not be any taller than 5 feet even. She is very much a coquette and ensures the group shares to quote my wife “no secrets”***
Our current sex life:
I think it would be rated as pretty good for a married couple of 11 years who were together for one year prior to marriage. We have sex probably one to four times per week and when my wife is menstruating or not in the mood she will often give me a hand job or play with my balls while I get myself off [which of course plays to my cuck fetish].
I introduced my wife to vibrators early on in our relationship and she's more than comfortable using them externally while I use my mouth. This is the way she will achieve orgasm 99% of the time. We will then typically move to penetration with me rock hard as a result of using my mouth [which I just love to do]. She will sometimes orgasm from penetration thanks to the toy warming her up. Generally penetrative sex will last between one to 10 minutes depending on how much she's enjoying it. To my joy she discovered how much I love having my balls or perineum played with and that I cannot last very long once she does this. Thus I can usually tell when she is not really into it because she will go to that move very early on, I will be turned on both because I realise I'm not really pleasuring her [because of my pencil dick of course] and the thought of being a premature ejaculator gets me off [literally].
My wife meanwhile always seems to think it's hilarious when I come and pretty much always laughs which again unwittingly plays to my cuckold leanings. She loves being able to make me come almost on demand and as a wannabe cuck I love her having this power over me.
Whenever intercourse goes beyond the five to 10 minute mark though if I haven't come I tend to go soft. I think this is because I can no longer be humiliated in my own head such that I stay fully stimulated. When she is really turned on my wife loves it when I pound her really hard, in particular taking her doggy style, spanking her exquisite butt and pulling her hair. Doggy style seems to be a position that particularly provokes my erectile dysfunction**** [probably because of the angle of insertion] so I imagine she can get quite frustrated when she just wants to be pounded - like most good cucks I'm good with my mouth and willing to use toys but just do not have the equipment or alpha male persona necessary for the good long hard fuck my wife both craves and deserves.
I have recently found a way to keep the erection going for a little bit longer which involves dirty talk. I will say things like “You love being fucked long and by a big cock don’t you naughty girl?” to which she will gasp “Yes”. Ostensibly I am talking to her about me fucking her however you will notice in the phrasing I never mentioned myself at all. it seems to turn the both of us on but as I say I am just not man enough to keep it going for long. Sometimes she will respond she will use dirty talk to try and get me over the edge, usually “fuck my pussy with that dick” though I only really twigged while typing this that she has never used “Big” when describing my dick. Its absence is notable given I always emphasise a “big cock” when I am dirty talking.
We use withdrawal as contraception with condoms used on very rare occasions. Depending on the position, I will usually come on her back or stomach or pull out from spooning position and come all over myself. I am always on cleanup duty which to this point has involved only tissues. I of course fantasise about being ‘made’ to lick it up but I think doing it in reality would gross her out. it should be noted that I have never come inside her except for when we were trying to conceive. It of course turns me on to think about someone else being allowed to do that while I am denied.
Recent events that make me think we could move toward some or all of my fetishes:
1.The text conversation:
As my wife leaves the house early for work I am often awake and alone nursing a morning erection. A few months ago with a view to grooming my wife toward taking a dildo in front of me I started the below text conversation while she was on the bus to work:
ME: OMG baby x I want to tell you about my naughty dream
HER: Hahahah okay. So naughty!!
ME: But I know you're my angel so maybe it's too naughty
HER: Hahhah I can be naughty too
ME: I know hehe
HER: OmG! U played with Jr.*****
ME: Not yet ;-P
HER: HEhehehe
ME: In my dream I came into the bedroom and I found you naked looking so sexy with your hot body. But you're doing something very naughty
HER: Tsk tsk tsk!
ME: Mmm very naughty girl
(Pause to see if she’s into it)
HER: And then did u do something hmmm?
ME: You were riding one of those plastic clocks we saw at the Sex Toy shop. Going up and down like when you ride Jr. It looked so hot :-O
HER: OMg! That is very naughty hehehe
ME: Yes how dare you hehe - but I like it! Your nipples were hard so I started sucking on them. My cock was so hard
HER: How could u now I have to cross my legs hehehe
ME: Then you slid all the way down on that big plastic cock
...
ME: Oops [eldest offspring] is here. I will tell you more later x
although this happened a few months ago we hadn’t mentioned the conversation again until two nights ago when I tried to steer things back there. Unfortunately she just wasn't in the mood having been at work all day so she told me I could “play with him”. So indeed I did! I jerked off for a little while at which point she told me I needed some Lube [JOI anyone?] so I complied and began to get more enthusiastic particularly when she started playing with my little shaven balls [“so smooth” she commented] and within about 20 desperate pumps of my hand I came all over myself.
She then looked at my now flaccid member and said “oh look at Junior. Sleeping like a baby”. “A big baby” I said in mock outrage to which she just laughed that laugh she generally reserves for when she makes me come too quick.
2. exercise and potential pegging
recently my wife has started exercising daily in an attempt to improve her already impressive physique. I know this can be a sign of a partner straying or at least thinking about it. As an aside, she will often do this not wearing much in front of me after the youngsters are in bed which gives me a great view of her butt and pussy. I then of course have no choice but to service her orally which generally leads to her favourite toy coming out of the bedside drawer. Anyway, out of the blue when we were both in bed one morning just before she was to get out of bed and exercise [and after she had allowed me to pump away for three minutes before the inevitable sticky mess I left on her backside] she said that her taking me doggy style would be good exercise for her. As I mentioned she does know I have a dildo that I use solo [though she doesn't know about the harness]. Immediately I said that I would be happy for her to do that to which she replied “Oh my God you're a bacla” which is the Filipino term for an effeminate male homosexual. A few days later I was leaning forward to retrieve an item from the pantry when she grabbed my hips and made a couple of thrusts as if she was taking me from behind. I do this to her quite often so it may have been a revenge drive-by but it might also have been a signal that it on her mind. I have tracked down a podcast from Ruby Ryder that I could use at some point to hopefully allay her concerns regarding me turning gay. I need two things – an anal douche as things get slightly messy during my solo play plus the courage to let her know how much this concept turns me on.
3. Her new social circle
As I mentioned above she has moved to a social circle that now includes divorcees and open relationships. Previously she had only really associated with other married women in pure vanilla relations. The horizons of her new friends have now expanded and extramarital sex is definitely more of a thing.