Any Husbands who can relate would love to chat and share experiences. Background - At first, I watched my wife getting fucked, that was my focused, he was just the cock fucking her. It was like watching porn, the guy was the performer but the center of my attention was the woman, her body, her tits, her cunt.
But over time my focus shifted to him, his body, his muscles, his cock and balls. I found I was watching him and my wife was just the vessel he was fucking.
I have sucked him several times and he has fucked me once. I wanted to do it.
So what does that mean? I still desire my wife. When he is not around we make love, we fuck. I want to fuck her. But I find I think of him naked, have masturbated thinking of his big cock. When he comes over to fuck my wife, I want to suck him, submit to him if he would want it.
I guess I am bisexual, but if I am honest with myself, I feel there is a stronger desire to be with him than my wife.
Is this normal? Is my sexual desire for him just a result of being in this cuckold relationship or am I more gay than straight? (I now find myself looking at guys, wondering what their cocks look like, what they would look like naked. Something I never consciously did before.)