You are a much better writer than I am. And when you wrote ...'hard to explain", you said it best. And becase I only started to suck cocks a coupleu years ago, and becase I have to stay far back in the closet because of my job - that when I do find a guy who will let me suck him, it is the most incredible sexual tension / anticpation ever. And knowing he's going to cum in my mouth makes me rock hard all the time I'm sucking him.