I was HUGELY shy when I was young, and completely self conscious about my breasst that were 36C in 6th grade, my mom made me HATE myself. They were bigger then than hers have EVER been. I had NO dates all the way thru high school (mostly because of my shyness and clumsiness at relationships), was a wallflower in College until one guy paid some attention to me, had sex the first time at 19 and married him........he did the same thing my mom did, made me HATE myself because I wanted to have orgasms during sex and thought he should be able to last more than 30-60 seconds, then roll over, grab a cigarette and go to the bar.........he said I was oversexed and needed "help". That lasted 5 years, until I found out he was having an affair with a ugly woman with 3 kids, he was an alcoholic, and noncompliant with his diabetes meds and diet. Self Confidence in the tank...
Then I met Hubby #2.....first night we had sex, he wanted to know what I needed to do to have an orgasm during sex!!!!! OMG!!!! It did require me rubbing my clit to cum, but he lasted long enough for me to have my first THREE orgasms during intercourse!! He talked about se, asked me what I liked and what I wanted and what me deepest darkest sexual desires were. I told him EVERYTHING I had done sexually (short conversation, LOL) and everyhing I wanted to do or at least fantasized about. We would lay in bed ALL DAY talking, fantasizing, watching x rated videos we both liked....the best description I have heard is he "awakened my inner slut!!".
Then a guy at work started paying attention to me.....and whole new chapter of my life opened up!!
J (the wife)