Ok so back story summed up the wife and have been toghter for about 9 years now. We have our ups n downs but a soild relashionship over all and both know neather are going anywhere.
So over the amount of time we been toghter i have share with her some diffent ideas of things i have had inculding cucking and open relashionship and so just for a change of pace and other reasons. So for a while she played along claming not to like it and it became a subject of a low point and so on.
So about a month ago she decided we are now in an open marrige yet im banned from going outside of the relashionship as i know that would have very bad falling out.
So anyway the other while looking something up on her phone a text came thru from a guy. I asked her about it and after a minute she admitted they been talking at night for about a week and there is a lot of heavy flirting and induendows going on in there chats. Tho my wife clams to be very clear cut and villina her behavors at times are far from that. With this guy its very clear they are feeling each other out. In her words she has mentally cheated and she admited she pobly wont put an end to these chats. Yesterday she joked about him coming up to see her at work today.
I guess at this point im a mental cuck. Its so hard to gage her real postion and intent because she is very stubbern and wont admit to herself or atlest to me that she has intrest and wants for a not so clear cut marriage. I admited to be jelus over it which she said she liked having me that way. Also i told her while i am jelus and its something i like i did not forbid her and she hasmt stopped. Im confussed is my old can of worms i opened really starting to happen and she is just playing koi bout her intents cuz se dont to admit that she wants to really enbrace this whole thing. I have asked her and her words are no but her actions are yes.
Sorry for such along first post
So over the amount of time we been toghter i have share with her some diffent ideas of things i have had inculding cucking and open relashionship and so just for a change of pace and other reasons. So for a while she played along claming not to like it and it became a subject of a low point and so on.
So about a month ago she decided we are now in an open marrige yet im banned from going outside of the relashionship as i know that would have very bad falling out.
So anyway the other while looking something up on her phone a text came thru from a guy. I asked her about it and after a minute she admitted they been talking at night for about a week and there is a lot of heavy flirting and induendows going on in there chats. Tho my wife clams to be very clear cut and villina her behavors at times are far from that. With this guy its very clear they are feeling each other out. In her words she has mentally cheated and she admited she pobly wont put an end to these chats. Yesterday she joked about him coming up to see her at work today.
I guess at this point im a mental cuck. Its so hard to gage her real postion and intent because she is very stubbern and wont admit to herself or atlest to me that she has intrest and wants for a not so clear cut marriage. I admited to be jelus over it which she said she liked having me that way. Also i told her while i am jelus and its something i like i did not forbid her and she hasmt stopped. Im confussed is my old can of worms i opened really starting to happen and she is just playing koi bout her intents cuz se dont to admit that she wants to really enbrace this whole thing. I have asked her and her words are no but her actions are yes.
Sorry for such along first post