Hi all, I'm in a very strange situation and need some advice.
A few years ago I and my wife agreed to be in so-called "Open Relationships" which means that we both have a right to play with others.
When we both were ready, my wife was the one who take the first step in real life and found the guy to fuck. I must admit it, her first encounter didn't work well, the guy was small and didn't last longer than 5 min. She was very upset and even give up on this kind of thing, but after a while, her desire to try another cock came back, and she meet a nice guy. After few friendly dates, she told me that she wants to fuck with him. On what I answer her "We are in an open relationship, you already did it once (even if he failed and you don't even consider it as sex, it still was sex) so I don't have a problem, go for it".
Since then she was meeting him for sex for almost two months, once or twice a week. We both were very comfortable with that situation, she was coming back home, telling me how it was and I'm always was reclaiming her. She was always satisfied, she had two cocks fucking her and our sex life became more active. She still was telling me that I'm a better lover, but she was happy with the new cock and she could fuck while I was at work.
Then they broke up and she didn't meet anyone anymore.
On the other hand, during all this time I could not find any other woman to fuck with, I'm not an ugly or loser or something like this lol. Don't love to describe myself but I'm pretty handsome, with a good sense of humor with a lot of friends. But I was unfortunate, mostly because when women find out that you have a wife they refuse you (at least in my experience). So I had few tinder dates and few real-life encounters but with no luck, even my wife was joking to me that she must find a girl for me to fuck lol.
But two months ago I meet one girl, who wasn't so much concerned about my marriage and she present to me a great night with a lot of sex, it was a wonderful night because she was the first person who I fucked, since I get married 10 years ago. On the next day I was very happy and in a good mood and when I came back I told everything to my wife.
And what do you think was her reaction? It was horrible, she start crying and refusing everything that we had an agreement on. She was begging me to not continue my relationship with that girl or any other girl. She told me she doesn't want to be in an open relationship anymore and we must stop even thinking about that.
All this was a hard shock for me because her reaction was radically different than what I was expecting. Since that time your relationship changed, because I feel a huge urge in fucking others (no matter it's someone's wife or not), and also I want my wife to be sexually free as it was a year ago when she was meeting with that guy. But the thing has changed drastically, all this even hit our sex life, we do not have sex as much as we have before, I start visiting adult sites as it was before we open to each other and start an actual open relationship, I'm jerking off to cuckold porn more than actually fucking her and in the same time dreaming about to meet someone to fuck, but in the same time, I do not want to do it behind her back and became a regular cheating husband.
So all in all this is my little story and now the situation is so bad I don't know what to do. My wife asking me why I don't want to have sex with her and I don't know what to tell her, because when I try to bring back this topic she doesn't want to listen to me.
I wrote this huge post to realize some things to myself and maybe to read some advice from experienced people, so feel free to leave me comments I'll gladly read them.
P.S. English is not my native language so sorry for mistakes
A few years ago I and my wife agreed to be in so-called "Open Relationships" which means that we both have a right to play with others.
When we both were ready, my wife was the one who take the first step in real life and found the guy to fuck. I must admit it, her first encounter didn't work well, the guy was small and didn't last longer than 5 min. She was very upset and even give up on this kind of thing, but after a while, her desire to try another cock came back, and she meet a nice guy. After few friendly dates, she told me that she wants to fuck with him. On what I answer her "We are in an open relationship, you already did it once (even if he failed and you don't even consider it as sex, it still was sex) so I don't have a problem, go for it".
Since then she was meeting him for sex for almost two months, once or twice a week. We both were very comfortable with that situation, she was coming back home, telling me how it was and I'm always was reclaiming her. She was always satisfied, she had two cocks fucking her and our sex life became more active. She still was telling me that I'm a better lover, but she was happy with the new cock and she could fuck while I was at work.
Then they broke up and she didn't meet anyone anymore.
On the other hand, during all this time I could not find any other woman to fuck with, I'm not an ugly or loser or something like this lol. Don't love to describe myself but I'm pretty handsome, with a good sense of humor with a lot of friends. But I was unfortunate, mostly because when women find out that you have a wife they refuse you (at least in my experience). So I had few tinder dates and few real-life encounters but with no luck, even my wife was joking to me that she must find a girl for me to fuck lol.
But two months ago I meet one girl, who wasn't so much concerned about my marriage and she present to me a great night with a lot of sex, it was a wonderful night because she was the first person who I fucked, since I get married 10 years ago. On the next day I was very happy and in a good mood and when I came back I told everything to my wife.
And what do you think was her reaction? It was horrible, she start crying and refusing everything that we had an agreement on. She was begging me to not continue my relationship with that girl or any other girl. She told me she doesn't want to be in an open relationship anymore and we must stop even thinking about that.
All this was a hard shock for me because her reaction was radically different than what I was expecting. Since that time your relationship changed, because I feel a huge urge in fucking others (no matter it's someone's wife or not), and also I want my wife to be sexually free as it was a year ago when she was meeting with that guy. But the thing has changed drastically, all this even hit our sex life, we do not have sex as much as we have before, I start visiting adult sites as it was before we open to each other and start an actual open relationship, I'm jerking off to cuckold porn more than actually fucking her and in the same time dreaming about to meet someone to fuck, but in the same time, I do not want to do it behind her back and became a regular cheating husband.
So all in all this is my little story and now the situation is so bad I don't know what to do. My wife asking me why I don't want to have sex with her and I don't know what to tell her, because when I try to bring back this topic she doesn't want to listen to me.
I wrote this huge post to realize some things to myself and maybe to read some advice from experienced people, so feel free to leave me comments I'll gladly read them.
P.S. English is not my native language so sorry for mistakes