Playing with men on your own
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I agree with you. It’s very hard.
I have a masturbation friend
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I gave several BJs to a guy back in ’19.
I was 100% hetero until then w/zero curiosity, but after learning my then-wife cheated, I went from jerking off, imagining my wife getting fucked…to showing off my wife’s boudoir pics as I submitted to a dominant alpha-male.
After we divorced (due to other reasons), the compulsion seemed to go away, and I began viewing it, like it was some weird experimental cock-sucking phase that was now in my past.
Then 18 months ago, I started dating a beautiful, sexy younger girl (I’m 37, she’s 25). And I couldn’t believe it when she agreed to move in with me.
Suddenly, I was jerking off, imagining my new gf cheating on me. And shortly thereafter, the cock-sucking urges came flooding back, like wanting to re-experience that surreal feeling of being humbled again.
But while I’d obviously be doing it behind my new gf’s back, i.e. "on my own", she still plays the central role. Like it’s my gf who’s he talking about, who he’s looking at, as he cock-slaps my face.
It only works for me because my gf is part of it. Like a gay guy wouldn’t interest me. I want an otherwise hetero-guy who really does want to fuck my girl. Which gives it such a cuck vibe, but without the crazy reality of being cuckolded in real life.
My gf would be horrified if she ever saw me giving a BJ. And if/when she cheats on me, she’s far more likely to dump my ass, then to ever go along with having a cuckold for a husband.
So, given my situation, she can’t be part of any of this in actual real life. But she’s still right there beside me, cock-teasing him with her smile and tits as I get on my knees.
My main point, I guess is, my curiosity/compulsion to suck cock again, is dependent on my relationship status (have to be with a serious girl/wife), and my confidence level in the relationship (increasingly insecure & jerking like a cuckold). Which I know objectively is very f’d up. But for me at least, there seems that correlation, both times that's been the situation.
I was 100% hetero until then w/zero curiosity, but after learning my then-wife cheated, I went from jerking off, imagining my wife getting fucked…to showing off my wife’s boudoir pics as I submitted to a dominant alpha-male.
After we divorced (due to other reasons), the compulsion seemed to go away, and I began viewing it, like it was some weird experimental cock-sucking phase that was now in my past.
Then 18 months ago, I started dating a beautiful, sexy younger girl (I’m 37, she’s 25). And I couldn’t believe it when she agreed to move in with me.
Suddenly, I was jerking off, imagining my new gf cheating on me. And shortly thereafter, the cock-sucking urges came flooding back, like wanting to re-experience that surreal feeling of being humbled again.
But while I’d obviously be doing it behind my new gf’s back, i.e. "on my own", she still plays the central role. Like it’s my gf who’s he talking about, who he’s looking at, as he cock-slaps my face.
It only works for me because my gf is part of it. Like a gay guy wouldn’t interest me. I want an otherwise hetero-guy who really does want to fuck my girl. Which gives it such a cuck vibe, but without the crazy reality of being cuckolded in real life.
My gf would be horrified if she ever saw me giving a BJ. And if/when she cheats on me, she’s far more likely to dump my ass, then to ever go along with having a cuckold for a husband.
So, given my situation, she can’t be part of any of this in actual real life. But she’s still right there beside me, cock-teasing him with her smile and tits as I get on my knees.
My main point, I guess is, my curiosity/compulsion to suck cock again, is dependent on my relationship status (have to be with a serious girl/wife), and my confidence level in the relationship (increasingly insecure & jerking like a cuckold). Which I know objectively is very f’d up. But for me at least, there seems that correlation, both times that's been the situation.
You might try hinting around about it just to get some insights about how she feels about it. When I told my hot gf I was sucking my gay friends big cock she asked if she could join in. Surprised the hell out of me.
I've been sucked off by 2 different guys and I've sucked one myself.
Wife doesn't know.
Wife doesn't know.
Occasionally i used to go to a bath house in the city, about an hr away, suck a few cocks at the gloryholes, get mine sucked, then go home. I must have done it a dozen times.
One day I was headed out when I saw a cousin of mine coming in. I was in the dark, and since he came in from the outside his eyes hadn't adjusted and I could tell he didn't see me - but I definitely saw him.
That's the last time I ever did that, but i still sometimes hook up using Adam 4 adam.
One day I was headed out when I saw a cousin of mine coming in. I was in the dark, and since he came in from the outside his eyes hadn't adjusted and I could tell he didn't see me - but I definitely saw him.
That's the last time I ever did that, but i still sometimes hook up using Adam 4 adam.
Yes I have started to play with men on my own .I have always crossdressed but since my wife started having sex with other men I've become obsessed .I now dress regularly in my pvc mini skirt ,satin panties stockings etc .I've started going dogging and get turned on by the men who come and watch me through the car window wanking their cocks .I've let some of them caress my pantie bulge and have allowed a few to wank me .I've touched another CDs pantie bulge and have recently caressed and wanked several cocks .I find myself fantasizing about more particularly with other CD s .
I prefer playing with men alone and I don't want her to know that I like guys and what I like doing with them or I should say what I like doing for them😉
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Particularly recently, I’ve come to assume my gf/soon-to-be-fiancée (hopefully), is going to cheat on me someday, sooner than later.
She doesn’t even know what cuckolding is, and would break up with me quick, if I simply confessed that I jerk off regularly, imagining her getting fucked.
So, I also don’t want her to cheat on me. Cause I think she’d start asking, like why’s she’s even with me, and quickly dump my ass.
Even though the reality of being openly cuckolded scares me, I’d certainly accept my role if she were willing to stay with me. And I’d jerk off listening to her getting fucked outside our bedroom door.
But there’s no way she’d go for staying married to such a submissive pussy. She’s typically dated more physical/outdoorsy men. And would leave more for a real man.
So, the notion of telling her I want to experience sucking cock again, never mind, wanting to be humbled by a more dominant man, would be too out-there for her to process.
If she were to ever walk in on me with a cock in my mouth, she’d recoil in horror/disgust, call me a fucking cocksucker and storm out.
Which is also how she’d react, if she learned I've been preparing a lengthy slide-show, showcasing her 25 yr old face, tits and ass that will projected on the hotel room TV, the next time I experience getting used and face-fucked by a dominant alpha male.
She doesn’t even know what cuckolding is, and would break up with me quick, if I simply confessed that I jerk off regularly, imagining her getting fucked.
So, I also don’t want her to cheat on me. Cause I think she’d start asking, like why’s she’s even with me, and quickly dump my ass.
Even though the reality of being openly cuckolded scares me, I’d certainly accept my role if she were willing to stay with me. And I’d jerk off listening to her getting fucked outside our bedroom door.
But there’s no way she’d go for staying married to such a submissive pussy. She’s typically dated more physical/outdoorsy men. And would leave more for a real man.
So, the notion of telling her I want to experience sucking cock again, never mind, wanting to be humbled by a more dominant man, would be too out-there for her to process.
If she were to ever walk in on me with a cock in my mouth, she’d recoil in horror/disgust, call me a fucking cocksucker and storm out.
Which is also how she’d react, if she learned I've been preparing a lengthy slide-show, showcasing her 25 yr old face, tits and ass that will projected on the hotel room TV, the next time I experience getting used and face-fucked by a dominant alpha male.
I enjoy topping twinks every now and then
Seems you're not such a good match, from my experience the desire to suck cock hasn't gone away since I first sucked one, Just curious how you'd deal with that after being married?
Never have but want to very much....wife would not be cool with it so I would have to do this on the side for sure. I agree that it is tough to find a participant that you can trust, is willing to try it and be Ok with keeping it confidential. I jerked with a few guys on cam and was very turned on by it.....
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Stepping back objectively, I don’t think we’re a good match at all.
I’m 37, she’s 25 and the age difference can make things challenging.
When we’re out for drinks with her friends, I try to fit in, and at least look younger than I am. But I feel intimidated, like a total outsider, like I’m trying too hard. And they’re artist types, and I’m sure to them, I’m just this older boring business guy who inexplicably is with their friend.
She’s also native-American, and while her family’s been welcoming, they still have to think of me as the new older white man dating their .......
And she’s active and outdoorsy, which I am, to a degree. But she was a tomboy through high school. She’d go out after-school and shoot coyotes with some guy friends. She opened rodeos at 15, by riding a lap around the stadium on a horse and carrying a flag.
And her past boyfriends were all rugged, strong men. One guy was in the military. Another worked in construction.
My gf will say she’s never dated anyone like me before. And that I make her laugh like no past bf’s have. And that our convos can be so intellectually stimulating.
But she’s 25, and likes to party/drink. And she can be very fun and friendly, particularly when buzzed. (Which is how I met her).
At some point, I feel she’s going to wake up and say WTF am I doing with this boring-ass loser. And realize she wants a real man again. And an alpha-male cock again, who can give her the fucking she craves and deserves.
I never expected a girl like her would ever go for me. I’m thin/decent-looking, but she’s the hottest girl I’ve ever been with. Perfect face, great natural tits, toned ass, etc.
I didn’t think we’d make it past a second date and was stunned when she starting talking about moving in with me.
But after moving in w/me last January, she’s now made it clear she’s thinking marriage.
Yes, objectively, I can ask myself, “do I really want to rush into marriage and be divorced in a couple years for now my second time.”
But I do freaking love her, cherish her, and head-over-heels for her. And I’ll never score such a beautiful girl again. So, I’m planning to propose to her in the new year.
But I’m also insecure as f*ck right now. Which is probably why I want to show off her pics/vids while sucking off alpha male cock.
So, will my cock-sucking desire go away once I’m engaged or married?
In the short term, probably not. Though maybe another mind-blowing cock-sucking experience could tamper the compulsion for a while.
Like after I divorced, I completely lost any interest, and the desire only really came back after my gf moved in with me.
So, it can recede and come back, and presumably recede again. Like maybe I’ll lose interest in the first couple years of marriage, and be more successful fighting off the thoughts after that.
But right now, I’m just hoping to meet an alpha-male and show off my girl and suck cock before I propose/get engaged.
If there were opportunity to continue sucking cock and showing her off while engaged, I'm pretty sure I'd be back on my knees. But ultimately, and perhaps wishful thinking, I do think my desire to be used/humbled/cock-slapped is just a phase.
I’m 37, she’s 25 and the age difference can make things challenging.
When we’re out for drinks with her friends, I try to fit in, and at least look younger than I am. But I feel intimidated, like a total outsider, like I’m trying too hard. And they’re artist types, and I’m sure to them, I’m just this older boring business guy who inexplicably is with their friend.
She’s also native-American, and while her family’s been welcoming, they still have to think of me as the new older white man dating their .......
And she’s active and outdoorsy, which I am, to a degree. But she was a tomboy through high school. She’d go out after-school and shoot coyotes with some guy friends. She opened rodeos at 15, by riding a lap around the stadium on a horse and carrying a flag.
And her past boyfriends were all rugged, strong men. One guy was in the military. Another worked in construction.
My gf will say she’s never dated anyone like me before. And that I make her laugh like no past bf’s have. And that our convos can be so intellectually stimulating.
But she’s 25, and likes to party/drink. And she can be very fun and friendly, particularly when buzzed. (Which is how I met her).
At some point, I feel she’s going to wake up and say WTF am I doing with this boring-ass loser. And realize she wants a real man again. And an alpha-male cock again, who can give her the fucking she craves and deserves.
I never expected a girl like her would ever go for me. I’m thin/decent-looking, but she’s the hottest girl I’ve ever been with. Perfect face, great natural tits, toned ass, etc.
I didn’t think we’d make it past a second date and was stunned when she starting talking about moving in with me.
But after moving in w/me last January, she’s now made it clear she’s thinking marriage.
Yes, objectively, I can ask myself, “do I really want to rush into marriage and be divorced in a couple years for now my second time.”
But I do freaking love her, cherish her, and head-over-heels for her. And I’ll never score such a beautiful girl again. So, I’m planning to propose to her in the new year.
But I’m also insecure as f*ck right now. Which is probably why I want to show off her pics/vids while sucking off alpha male cock.
So, will my cock-sucking desire go away once I’m engaged or married?
In the short term, probably not. Though maybe another mind-blowing cock-sucking experience could tamper the compulsion for a while.
Like after I divorced, I completely lost any interest, and the desire only really came back after my gf moved in with me.
So, it can recede and come back, and presumably recede again. Like maybe I’ll lose interest in the first couple years of marriage, and be more successful fighting off the thoughts after that.
But right now, I’m just hoping to meet an alpha-male and show off my girl and suck cock before I propose/get engaged.
If there were opportunity to continue sucking cock and showing her off while engaged, I'm pretty sure I'd be back on my knees. But ultimately, and perhaps wishful thinking, I do think my desire to be used/humbled/cock-slapped is just a phase.
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No your desire to suck cock will never go away and it's not a phase IMO, at least from my own experience and other bi guys I talked with. I love sucking my friends big cock, submitting to him and being his bitch. Here's the point, I only need to be with and interact with him every month or two, otherwise I'm happy being with my hot gf,eating her wet smelly pussy and fucking her brains out. I don't know why I'm like this and don't care, I know I love and need being his cock sucker,his sissy bitch and needy faggot. All of this only came to the surface after sucking his big cock and it's been down the rabbit hole ever since. I know for me this is never going to go away.
I was a cocksucker way before I got my first pussy. I started sucking cock when I was 14, but didn't get my first pussy until 18. I stayed a cocksucker from then on. I kind of hid it from my wife for several years. She had heard I sucked cock while we dated, but never confirmed it. She knows I do now and is fine with it. I also fluff and clean her boyfriends when they are OK with it.
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Perfect, you're lucky to have such an understanding and supportive wife. My guess is you're pretty happy and contented with yore relationship and life.
In my personal opinion, women in their 20s are still open minded enough to experiment with alternative sexual situations. My wife was 29 when we started in the Lifestyle. The pattern I've noticed with women in the LS are they either get into it in their 20s or early 30s, or much later in life like late 40s and 50s.
But I think what's key is to take baby steps into this Lifestyle. If you try to dive right into cuckoldry and male bisexuality you will freak her out.
Start by making dirty talk about sharing her when you have her all hot and ready for sex. Visit a nude beach or (better yet) a nudist resort while on vacation. Take things slow. My wife and I got into swinging, then it took a couple years before we started experimenting with cuckoldry and eventually male bisexuality.
I love dressing up as a girl, whenever I'm home alone I do it, sometimes in miniskirts, other times in thongs or cheeky panties. One afternoon when I was alone I put on one of my wife's dresses and was discovered by a neighbor who was fixing a leak. Now he blackmails me and has turned me into his whore. It was the best thing that ever happened to me. Now I have to suck his dick whenever he wants.
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I never swallowed with the one guy I gave blowjobs to.
Instead—each time—I took a facial. I discovered I loved the feeling of warm sperm shooting into my face. And I’d always run to a mirror right afterwards. To see myself, looking like an emasculated cum-slut.
And knowing he came from looking at, and dirty-talking, about fucking my girl. And thinking, if my girl, or anyone I knew were to see me like that. Which made it mentally so surreal and out-there. And gave me a raging hard-on. The visual and mental spectacle of it all. Like I’d not just been face-fucked, but mind-fucked as well.
The idea of swallowing had grossed me out, but recently, I’ve become more curious. Not enough to try tasting my own.
But it feels like the ultimate punctuation mark. A statement of an alpha-male’s dominance over me. Pumping his load down my throat while telling me my girl’s pussy’s now his.
And the headiness going back to my girl afterwards, thinking I’m not just a cocksucker, but now a cum-swallower as well. And trying to forget all that, and try and act normal, as I kiss her hello.
So, I guess now, while I still want to see my face cum-splattered in the mirror afterwards, I’m a lot more open to the idea of swallowing.
And just curious, for those who have, what was your first experience like?
Instead—each time—I took a facial. I discovered I loved the feeling of warm sperm shooting into my face. And I’d always run to a mirror right afterwards. To see myself, looking like an emasculated cum-slut.
And knowing he came from looking at, and dirty-talking, about fucking my girl. And thinking, if my girl, or anyone I knew were to see me like that. Which made it mentally so surreal and out-there. And gave me a raging hard-on. The visual and mental spectacle of it all. Like I’d not just been face-fucked, but mind-fucked as well.
The idea of swallowing had grossed me out, but recently, I’ve become more curious. Not enough to try tasting my own.
But it feels like the ultimate punctuation mark. A statement of an alpha-male’s dominance over me. Pumping his load down my throat while telling me my girl’s pussy’s now his.
And the headiness going back to my girl afterwards, thinking I’m not just a cocksucker, but now a cum-swallower as well. And trying to forget all that, and try and act normal, as I kiss her hello.
So, I guess now, while I still want to see my face cum-splattered in the mirror afterwards, I’m a lot more open to the idea of swallowing.
And just curious, for those who have, what was your first experience like?