Still have so much Anxiety

[tjlove23]

She has been playing for over 20 years and I still havnt figured out how to deal with the intensity of feelings I get.

We were just at a bar and I sat in a corner and watched her and this man start talking and dancing. By the end of the night she was grinding on him. He knew she was married but never let on I was there.

The Rollercoaster of emotions is almost too much. I felt jealousy at times, excited, and a little worried she wasn't the same person.

She took another friend home and they fucked in her car. I am waiting on her to return.

She always reconnect with me and I get excited about it in the end. We have a hotwife dynamic and not humiliation. I dont understand why it is still harder. Maybe because under the excitement is the woman I truly love.

 

[atxlscouple]

Your feelings are 💯 valid. Have you told her how it makes you feel? Maybe it’s time that you redefine the boundaries. The LS only works if everyone is on the same exact page and paragraph. If one person is reading ahead, it doesn’t work right. Over-communication is paramount. If she’s not letting on that her husband is there, unless that’s the kink that you’ve previously agreed upon, she’s disrespecting you. But, if you haven’t told her, she might not even realize it. Talk to your partner. That’s the only sustainable model. Good luck!

 

[Vincenzo]

You just have to remember, its just fucking. In the end, its you that she loves and comes back to

 

[tjlove23]

Your feelings are 💯 valid. Have you told her how it makes you feel? Maybe it’s time that you redefine the boundaries. The LS only works if everyone is on the same exact page and paragraph. If one person is reading ahead, it doesn’t work right. Over-communication is paramount. If she’s not letting on that her husband is there, unless that’s the kink that you’ve previously agreed upon, she’s disrespecting you. But, if you haven’t told her, she might not even realize it. Talk to your partner. That’s the only sustainable model. Good luck!

She is doing what I want. I forgot to add she did exactly as I told her do. It is just so intense in the moment. She is on her way home and once we reconnect, I am ok.

 

[atxlscouple]

She is doing what I want. I forgot to add she did exactly as I told her do. It is just so intense in the moment. She is on her way home and once we reconnect, I am ok.

Well, if it’s exactly what you want, you wasted a post. You like the anxiety. Enjoy.

 

[tjlove23]

Well, if it’s exactly what you want, you wasted a post. You like the anxiety. Enjoy.

No I love the end result.