That's what my fate was like too. I had a girlfriend and the deal was that I was not alowed to fuck her or able to. My only contact with her was oral sex. She told me all I was good for was cleaning her after she was with other guys. She measured me and compared me to one of her lovers. That was when I knew I'd probably never successfully have sex with any girl. She always teased me and called me her "little clean up boy." I learned to enjoy that knowing thats all I would ever get.I knew my dick wasn’t going to be enough for anybody probably by the age of 18 or 19. I was a very late blooming chubby kid so while all my friends were getting pussy, I’d stay home and got them really dating myself here but I would have phone sex with women on those dialing chat, hook up lines. I’ll never forget it. I met a much older woman who had me go to our apartment. I took my dick out and she laughed and said oh no you’re just gonna eat my pussy which I happily did, but that was the first time I realize my dick probably wasn’t going to be getting off most women.