My wife knows about this fantasy and how I’m ok with it. I mean she’s a little vanilla where as I’ve always been the more sexual one. She has moments sometimes, but she so unhappy with her appearance that when we try to talk about it she just shuts down. Then she locks up and she don’t want to do anything at all. She used to love sex now it’s hard to even get her to follow through we just talks it all up and gets me all fired up. Just to tell me she’s to tire