Unexpected first experience. So many emotions.

[Accidental Cuck]

Hey

I've had a long time fantasy to be cuckolded or have a hotwife but it was never something I thought I would actually do. We spoke often about it. My girlfriend decided that we should do this, didn't tell me though, and so it happened about a month ago now on our dirty weekend away for our 5th anniversary.

I'm struggling emotionally dealing with this. I'm so excited and grateful that it happened but I also feel like I had no say. I feel like I can't wait to see my girlfriend with someone else again but I'm also horrified that she did this. I know it makes no sense. I can't make sense of it.

So quickly. She organised a weekend away for our Anniversary. The first afternoon we were in bed fooling around and she told me to wait a few minutes that she had a surprise. She came back in the room in awesome lingerie and then said that's not all and bought a guy in. It was someone from her work. She told me that if I said no, or stop or anything like that I couldn't watch and then she dropped to her knees. I got up and stood next to her but she refused to touch me and told me to stay in a corner and that I wasn't allowed to touch myself. That was the entire three days. I had to remain clothed, they stayed naked. I cooked, they fucked. I cleaned, they fucked. I watched TV, they fucked. I had to ...... on the floor, they fucked in the bed. I had to drive him home at the end of the weekend, they fucked in the back seat. Then she went in and stayed the night with him and told me I had to pick her up in the morning. When I got there she facetimed me and I watched them fuck again before she came out.

Happy Anniversary to me! I love her so much that she did this for me but I also hate her so much that she did this to me. I really can't sort these emotions out.

To any guys who are experienced in this, did you start this way with your feelings? Even to any women, did you have mixed emotions? My girlfriend says she had the best time ever and wants to continue. I'm not so sure. I mean I really REALLY want to, thinking about it is such a turn on but my stupid brain is so conflicted. I think it's just societal norms getting in the way hence why I've sought out likeminded people.

So over to you all. Any comments, suggestions or otherwise will be appreciated.

 

[flipside]

Hey A.C.
First off there is a difference between a Sissy, a Cuckold, and a Stag, what you just experienced was being a Sissy and I don't envy you (to each there own but...) with out getting into how you compare to the other man in ability and junk size, she has demeaned you and after five years of relationship to make you ...... on the floor or other then say happy anniversary she no longer looks at you as #1, you need to have a hard transparent conversation with her about respect, a Cuckold wife can have open relationship but nurture the primary relationship, there is a difference between love and sex. Then you have a Stag that is an Alpha male, that leads the relationship (you can be both a Stag and a Cuckold when you lead and included and celebrate together her fun in solo ville). You need to root out her true motive but at this point I would say if this continues you will never be her equal or love partner forward. There is a lot of questions I have for you if you would like to DM me but look at the other posts I have done and you will get a lot of good insights that you need. Just for a moment reverse the story and and you do that to her, think of the mind set needed to do that... the LifeStyle is to be a win / win for both parties, and it should make the relationship stronger not weaker. If you have cracks in the relationship and you add the LifeStyle it will magnify cracks.. what you don't want is a narcissistic woman ! !

 

[Accidental Cuck]

You need to root out her true motive

I think this is it.
I loved what happened, I truly did... IF she was doing it for me as she claims.
If there was an ulterior motive then as you suggest the entire dynamic changes.
We are open and talking about it. She has defaulted to me about whether we continue or not. She claims she did it entirely for me and she's never wavered from that.

 

[Wantsomefunto]

Enjoy it and have her do it again soon

 

[SmallHubbyTexas]

My wife started this journey because I asked her too. Now she does this because she is enjoying herself and I am ok with that. She currently has 3 boyfriends that she has a good time with.

Now have things been tried that made me truly uncomfortable, yes but I talked with my wife and we worked it out.

This is the key to this lifestyle, communication. You have to talk with each other.

 

[Stevens4fun]

I'm a little responding, sorry. Our experience (wife and I) was that she was enthusiastic about sex with a few other men she'd fantasized about once she had internalized that our marriage was secure and that I wasn't surreptitiously looking for a path to fuck other women. Her first liaison happened in our bed with her coworker late one morning and she told me she'd made all the arrangements. I knew him too, and deep in my heart I really wanted them to have good sex on a regular basis. They were in their afterglow lovemaking when I finally got home and joined them. " Seconds" with her was emotional and sensational. He watched as I finished, then he moved between her legs (missionary) and the two of them made love. I was overwhelmed with emotion and some fear and as I watched them it was clear my wife had feelings for him. We talked after he left and agreed we both wanted it to happen again. As our horniness dissolved we were to discuss it rationally. He was a guest in our bed every few weeks for just short of 4 years, and also spent the night in hotels with her when they traveled for work. It was a tearful parting when he retired and moved away with his wife. We did have friction over our schedules, as a husband you just have to expect this. You wife can't be with you all the time if there's another man in her life. And there will be times she wants to be with him more than she wants to be with you. If you can't handle this, don't go there.

All of what we experienced wasn't about cuckold, huge penises, bbc, cages, her legs in the air with heels on, and so on. Those words and concepts don't come up much (or didn't in our case). It was all about good sex for all three of us as frequently as possible. In our bed as frequently as possible. By agreement, I did not have to be present, but my wife clearly understood how much pleasure I enjoyed fucking her afterwards and she delighted with giving me seconds whenever she could. It was not expected that I'd work to bring her to orgasm when enjoying her that way, it was a sexy and lovely gift for me. That's how we rolled.