Hello all,
First of all, excuse me for my bad english. I am not english speaker, so I will do my best.
In the last months I have been thinking a lot about the origin of my cuckold kink. Where and when it started?? I have been thinking about this for a long time. And I'm curious if anyone here wants to share his own experience as well.
In my case I think I was around 17 when I started having these fantasies. In that time there was not easy access to porn, so I used to masturbate thinking about fantasies. I had a very beautiful girlfriend, black hair, green eyes, busty petite. But even thought, I liked to fantasize about other women. I think this is quite common...
I remember I masturbated every night in bed, taking my time and creating the perfect fantasy with a friend of me, or a neighbour, or my youngest aunt (oh god... my aunt... you can't imagine how many times I fucked her in my dreams!!!) I had a few recurring fantasies I used randomly every night until I reach the orgasm. I was quite creative and made my private world work perfectly for my needs Now of course with porn, I guess young people lost the capacity of usingf their imagination like us (I'm from the late 80´s, so I'm not that old). But I'm sure that older users here understan what I'm talkin about.
The thing is some day after a few weeks using the same story I had to create another one, or introduce a new women in the fantasy. But there was one night I had a dream where one of my best friends (my older cousin) fucked my beautiful girlfriend. And I got mad during the dream. Indeed it was more a nightmare. I'm a straight man, and I considered myself very masculine. So dreaming about that was like very anoying for me. I though I was kind of sick for dreaming about that. But the reality is that I could not remove that from my head, and eventually I started to have huge hard ons when thinking about that.
Then I split with my GF and suddenly I didn't feel so bad thinking about her with another man. And one day finally happened. I let my imagination going directly into that and I started to fantasize about her having sex with my cousin. I think I had the hardest hard one and orgasm of the last years. I exploded like a volcano letting my imagination go.
And I kept that fantasy during the next year until I met my next GF, and then I stopped having this fantasy during the time we were together (around 5 years). And then I broke up with this new GF, but we had sex for fun during the next months. And then she suddenly stopped it. And I knew by a common friend that she started a relationship with a guy from our city. And I know (because my friend told me) that this guy had a huge penis. And then i started to have the same behaviour with this ex GF again. I masturbated again almost every night thinking about her with her new boyfriend. And the fact that the guy had a huge penis, made me so jealous and sick, but at the same time, so excited... I could not understand anything.
Well, this is my honest experience, I would appreciate if other users would like to tell their own story. Please, not fantasy. I would like this becomes a genuine thread.
Thanks!
First of all, excuse me for my bad english. I am not english speaker, so I will do my best.
In the last months I have been thinking a lot about the origin of my cuckold kink. Where and when it started?? I have been thinking about this for a long time. And I'm curious if anyone here wants to share his own experience as well.
In my case I think I was around 17 when I started having these fantasies. In that time there was not easy access to porn, so I used to masturbate thinking about fantasies. I had a very beautiful girlfriend, black hair, green eyes, busty petite. But even thought, I liked to fantasize about other women. I think this is quite common...
I remember I masturbated every night in bed, taking my time and creating the perfect fantasy with a friend of me, or a neighbour, or my youngest aunt (oh god... my aunt... you can't imagine how many times I fucked her in my dreams!!!) I had a few recurring fantasies I used randomly every night until I reach the orgasm. I was quite creative and made my private world work perfectly for my needs Now of course with porn, I guess young people lost the capacity of usingf their imagination like us (I'm from the late 80´s, so I'm not that old). But I'm sure that older users here understan what I'm talkin about.
The thing is some day after a few weeks using the same story I had to create another one, or introduce a new women in the fantasy. But there was one night I had a dream where one of my best friends (my older cousin) fucked my beautiful girlfriend. And I got mad during the dream. Indeed it was more a nightmare. I'm a straight man, and I considered myself very masculine. So dreaming about that was like very anoying for me. I though I was kind of sick for dreaming about that. But the reality is that I could not remove that from my head, and eventually I started to have huge hard ons when thinking about that.
Then I split with my GF and suddenly I didn't feel so bad thinking about her with another man. And one day finally happened. I let my imagination going directly into that and I started to fantasize about her having sex with my cousin. I think I had the hardest hard one and orgasm of the last years. I exploded like a volcano letting my imagination go.
And I kept that fantasy during the next year until I met my next GF, and then I stopped having this fantasy during the time we were together (around 5 years). And then I broke up with this new GF, but we had sex for fun during the next months. And then she suddenly stopped it. And I knew by a common friend that she started a relationship with a guy from our city. And I know (because my friend told me) that this guy had a huge penis. And then i started to have the same behaviour with this ex GF again. I masturbated again almost every night thinking about her with her new boyfriend. And the fact that the guy had a huge penis, made me so jealous and sick, but at the same time, so excited... I could not understand anything.
Well, this is my honest experience, I would appreciate if other users would like to tell their own story. Please, not fantasy. I would like this becomes a genuine thread.
Thanks!
