It looks like you all have a great thing going like my Wife and I used to. I’m not going to say reconsider, but at least all 3 of you have a serious conversation asking What if? After my Wife had been with our Bull for a year, he got her pregnant. When reality hit, she freaked out about people seeing and knowing what we had been doing, our Bull freaked because he didn’t want to pay child support Even though I told him not to worry about it. It was a mess that ultimately destroyed the lifestyle for us. He ghosted us and took off. She had multiple panic attacks and ended up having a mis-carriage. After the dust settled, she didn’t want to continue the lifestyle. Just make sure you don’t ruin what you have, you will spend years regretting the choice that ruined a good thing.