A lot of questions. I try to answer them at my best. The last time I penetrated her is maybe 3 years ago. At that time she already had her lover and she said that he can give her more sexually than me. I think it also has something to do with the size when I look at his member. Of course, I'm often let out by her to clean up and now and then I'm allowed to jerk myself off. She rarely gives me a hand job. The loss of interest in my penis refers to her not wanting to be fucked by me anymore. Nevertheless, she wants to keep me aroused. That benefits her and me. So she definitely wants to keep me caged. When I´m horny I more often eagerly go down on her, she has benefits of my oral skills and gets better orgams. I myself have a happy and satisfied woman. The jealousy and fear of loss? That´s a kind of big arousal. In real life we have a very good relation. She manages to separate real life and sex with her bull very well. Up to a certain point, when she really needs being fuckied well again. Over all I don´t really fear her leaving me. What I´m missing? I wish here and there that I too could fuck her properly. But we have given up the discussion. She made it clear to me that better tools are needed and available. But what I'm really afraid of is that he will drive her further and further into a certain bad sexual dependence on him. She has always liked men who simply take what they want and he takes full advantage of that and doesn't allow her to contradict him in any way. He also expects her to wear exactly what he likes. Sometimes she looks like a cheap hooker. When there are discussions with different opinions, he often completes any discussions this with his hand over her mouth and forces her down on her knees or in the direction of the bedroom. He also plays with her with the fine line between pain and pleasure. The more discomfort or pain from his "sex toys" she can endure, the more pleasure he gives her. Ultimately she self is just a sex toy for him and his pleasure. But that's exactly what she likes.
