Clearly these two short skinny creepy ugly old women (chair person Jodi and Native American Patty) my sex partners have learned the gaslighting game well. They were relishing the emotional turmoil they created and perceived my action as an open invitation. They have taken a page from a Mad Men-era harassment playbook and assume their status as older, “non-threatening” women entitles them to do so. I didn't want to make waves. Social conditioning has trained me to believe that my body is not my own, but rather, public property to be guarded (by my Jealous husband) shamed (by my Mother) and ruthlessly judged (by society.)
This was further underscored by the victim-blaming behavior of the other female participants in my AA group. It was probably bizarre to these other women AA members because i am 5ft11 tall,curvy,well endowed,well built and always on high heels standing next to these old short skinny women(Jodi and Patty) i looked like a giant.Because of that I was not taken seriously by other women AA group participants.Also Jodi and Patty don't look threatening. They are masculine, creepy and ugly but they are tiny,short and skinny older women. So they made me their sex partner/slave
