I have really started to think about my journey as a cuck and have been wondering how far back it goes and how it really began.
Most of my girlfriends had cheated on me going back to being 14 years old and when I found out that my wife had cheated while we were engaged it turned me on and I went through a period of acceptance. I would rather stay with her than not be with her. I accepted that she cheated and it turned me on. When she was having her affair I suspected it and said nothing. Never confronted her and rarely acted jealous. But that is when the idea of her cucking me really took shape and I started to masturbate thinking of her getting fucked by him and watching porn where the woman resembled her enough that I could pretend it was her. That slowly became the only thing that I could get off to.
The two previous women i had been with before had cheated and it was kid of open and mature. The 1st we were in different cities and she confessed over the phone and I felt hurt but also a little aroused though I never told her that. She also mentioned that the man had a huge dick. We never really explored it. The other woman confessed to ...... with another man and I accepted it as the relationship was more casual and she talked about cheating on me as she stroked me. Later as it was a rocky breakup we would fuck occasionally or sex chat online and she would tell me other men would fuck her and had thicker cocks.
I'm 5.5" so average and never really worried about my size. Sure, liek most men I wanted to be bigger, but I was okay being average.
Then when my wife confessed to having fucked a man for months while we engaged I got very turned on and confessed it to her. Though she could see that I was hard and and touching myself. She told me the other man had a huge cock. And this began our journey.
So I guess my question is how many of you had similar journeys or accepting that you will be cheated on and your brain reprogrammed to be aroused by it the way mine seems to have. And how many have been cucks in their head before being cheated on? I wonder, if I had a 7" dick and was never cheated on would these feelings I have still turn me on so much and dominate my sex life? Is it simply because my dick is average and a bit too thin and I wanted to protect myself from being hurt that I just adapted to accept it?
I still have dominant male fantasies sometimes, but I always revert quickly to being a beta, small dick cuck as soon as I engage in sex or masturbation. Over the past decade it has just become who I am.
Most of my girlfriends had cheated on me going back to being 14 years old and when I found out that my wife had cheated while we were engaged it turned me on and I went through a period of acceptance. I would rather stay with her than not be with her. I accepted that she cheated and it turned me on. When she was having her affair I suspected it and said nothing. Never confronted her and rarely acted jealous. But that is when the idea of her cucking me really took shape and I started to masturbate thinking of her getting fucked by him and watching porn where the woman resembled her enough that I could pretend it was her. That slowly became the only thing that I could get off to.
The two previous women i had been with before had cheated and it was kid of open and mature. The 1st we were in different cities and she confessed over the phone and I felt hurt but also a little aroused though I never told her that. She also mentioned that the man had a huge dick. We never really explored it. The other woman confessed to ...... with another man and I accepted it as the relationship was more casual and she talked about cheating on me as she stroked me. Later as it was a rocky breakup we would fuck occasionally or sex chat online and she would tell me other men would fuck her and had thicker cocks.
I'm 5.5" so average and never really worried about my size. Sure, liek most men I wanted to be bigger, but I was okay being average.
Then when my wife confessed to having fucked a man for months while we engaged I got very turned on and confessed it to her. Though she could see that I was hard and and touching myself. She told me the other man had a huge cock. And this began our journey.
So I guess my question is how many of you had similar journeys or accepting that you will be cheated on and your brain reprogrammed to be aroused by it the way mine seems to have. And how many have been cucks in their head before being cheated on? I wonder, if I had a 7" dick and was never cheated on would these feelings I have still turn me on so much and dominate my sex life? Is it simply because my dick is average and a bit too thin and I wanted to protect myself from being hurt that I just adapted to accept it?
I still have dominant male fantasies sometimes, but I always revert quickly to being a beta, small dick cuck as soon as I engage in sex or masturbation. Over the past decade it has just become who I am.
