There is something very arousing and erotic and at the same time humbling and humiliating watching the love of your life, your bride, the first time she kneels before a new man or takes him into the marital bed or leaves the house for an overnight without you present and in your heart and head that she is giving her body to him so that she can experience a level sexual euphoria that you are totally incapable of matching. And while she is engaged with him, her body, heart and soul are his and you are the farthest thing from her mind