Let me give the history then I will ask some questions.
My wife lost her job about a year ago because during a work party on premises she was caught fucking one of her subordinates in her office. Ok, so I’m mad that she cheated and the fact she did it at work is just plain stupid but I can’t help thinking back to that night.
Although I didn’t know what she had done at the time I remember that night so well. She came home and was just ready to go. We went straight to the bedroom and the sex was awesome. I remember because of the role playing, she wanted me to keep slapping her, pulling her hair and calling her a whore. She was really getting off on it. The next day she slept until lunchtime because she was pretty drunk but once she was up we did it all again, she kept apologizing for being a whore. I thought it was just part of the role playing. I found out a few days later the truth. We’ve worked through it and we are still together.
So here we are a year later and everything is great between us but I can’t get the thought out of my head that I want her to be with other men. I’m not sure whether I want to watch or not but just the thought of her going to visit a lover but then coming home to be excites my like I can’t explain.
I bought this up with her and she kept swearing she would never cheat again but once I assured he it wouldn’t be cheating if I was aware I could see that tiny smile that she just might. She’s still saying no but it’s more of a maybe than a no. For example on New Years Eve we were at a party and obviously we kissed at midnight. I encouraged her to kiss other guys there, she didn’t, but she was like ‘are you sure’, ‘what if someone we know sees’, it wasn’t a ‘no, I don’t want to’. The sex we had when we got home was insane. I kept role playing the other guys and she was so into it. As someone who is not a regular squirter she was so into it we had to change the sheets before we slept.
We spoke the next day about doing it for real but it was still a no. I told her I’m just going to bring someone home one day and send them to the bedroom with her. Instead of saying no she said ‘but how would I know if I liked them if I don’t choose them’. That’s not a no. I can see she wants this but just can’t bring herself to admit it.
So how do I convince her? Is it just time or should I push the idea?
My wife lost her job about a year ago because during a work party on premises she was caught fucking one of her subordinates in her office. Ok, so I’m mad that she cheated and the fact she did it at work is just plain stupid but I can’t help thinking back to that night.
Although I didn’t know what she had done at the time I remember that night so well. She came home and was just ready to go. We went straight to the bedroom and the sex was awesome. I remember because of the role playing, she wanted me to keep slapping her, pulling her hair and calling her a whore. She was really getting off on it. The next day she slept until lunchtime because she was pretty drunk but once she was up we did it all again, she kept apologizing for being a whore. I thought it was just part of the role playing. I found out a few days later the truth. We’ve worked through it and we are still together.
So here we are a year later and everything is great between us but I can’t get the thought out of my head that I want her to be with other men. I’m not sure whether I want to watch or not but just the thought of her going to visit a lover but then coming home to be excites my like I can’t explain.
I bought this up with her and she kept swearing she would never cheat again but once I assured he it wouldn’t be cheating if I was aware I could see that tiny smile that she just might. She’s still saying no but it’s more of a maybe than a no. For example on New Years Eve we were at a party and obviously we kissed at midnight. I encouraged her to kiss other guys there, she didn’t, but she was like ‘are you sure’, ‘what if someone we know sees’, it wasn’t a ‘no, I don’t want to’. The sex we had when we got home was insane. I kept role playing the other guys and she was so into it. As someone who is not a regular squirter she was so into it we had to change the sheets before we slept.
We spoke the next day about doing it for real but it was still a no. I told her I’m just going to bring someone home one day and send them to the bedroom with her. Instead of saying no she said ‘but how would I know if I liked them if I don’t choose them’. That’s not a no. I can see she wants this but just can’t bring herself to admit it.
So how do I convince her? Is it just time or should I push the idea?
